I am not sure where to begin. I began reading The Secret a while back, then I went out and purchased the CDs, and then I rented the movie and somehow it went missing in my house (odd as it is, I have a tiny house I rent). Of course, I ended up having to pay for the movie. Just as I paid for the movie, wouldn’t you know I found it. lol… So I guess it was meant to be that I own it.

I began to learn about The Secret when I took a position at a school that had to recruit people in. The recruitment team started out small and grew and grew. So competition was everywhere. I am by far a sales person. But it seemed when I read The Secret or listened to the CDs in the morning, I did great. But with an hour drive and demanding children, I started to become extremely tired and couldn’t focus. The Secret seemed not to be working for me. I just couldn’t concentrate anywhere. Work was falling apart, it was starting to become cut throat, and I was not sleeping at home. I had come to the cross roads of making a choice. Stay where I was at, or move on. Move on to somewhere I wouldn’t be so stressed. That is exactly what I did. I began to look for other positions. But even that process seemed to be endless. When I first moved down here to Florida, I had people calling me everyday. Now no one.

One day sitting at my desk and looking around, I noticed I had all my pictures all over my desk and my calendars were marked for future appointments. My drawers were full of my stuff. I thought back to The Secret. Though I had not been as dedicated to it, I still believed in it. I had not changed anything to allow an opening in my life… My desk looked like I had no intentions of ever leaving. That night I packed up my stuff, completely cleared it up, went to my boss, and told him I was possibly going to be leaving. He just laughed at me. Everyone thought I was crazy.

The next day, I got a call for a job I applied and interviewed for a month prior. I took the job and gave official notice to my boss.

I left my position and all my friends, but then I took sick. A week of being sick and putting off my start date with my new company, and they wanted a doctor’s excuse for me to start work. I had no insurance nor did I have anything. I lost the job before I could begin. I began to panic. The Secret was the last thing on my mind at this point. No money, I lived pay check to pay check. What was I going to do. I would sit and cry all day. I put in resume after resume. Still nothing..
I was going to loose everything, possibly my children. I have always been a worker, I am not lazy, and my family is everything to me. How could this happen to me!

Then one day, my daughter came to me. She was on her way out to church, and she asked me for some money for offering. The church was going to help people for Thanksgiving. I kind of snapped back at her. We are the people the church is going to help. But something at that point hit me! There are people that have so much less than we do. By the time Thanksgiving comes around, we might not have a huge turkey on the table, but we would still have each other, and that was more than what most people were going to have. I told her to take all the change I had out in my car and give it in good faith. I didn’t do it because I thought I would get something back, but because there is someone out there who was in worse shape than we were.

That Monday, I received a call… it was for a job offer, out of nowhere. One I had not even applied for. It was 3 minutes up the road from my house and the pay was more than really what is heard of around here. The hours were part time, but it was some type of money coming in. I took the job and and things began to become more clear. Hope came back to me. I began to think more and more about The Secret again. I had been so down on myself and bringing such negativity to myself. I even went as far as to tell my children why we might not have a Christmas this year.

But 3 weeks later… I love my new job and I even got an extra day added on to it, just after 3 weeks. I began to brainstorm and I looked in the want adds for a free tree, and we even will have some extra money for Christmas. I never gave up hope, and every morning I give thanks for the little things. But I had to search deep within and realize my family and I deserve much more, and I wasn’t going to loose them. Things are still hard, but I have my family and I thank God for everything I have and give thanks for the guidance The Secret has taught me. My goal for next year is that my family and I can give back for the miracle we have received this year, by preparing all year long and spending next Christmas with my father’s (who passed away a few years ago) favorite organization, and bringing smiles to other children and a family who might need it. I do not know how we will do this, but I know the door will be opened for us some how, some way.