Attracting The Love I Always Wanted.
I am an almost 40 year old single girl in India. I come from a traditional family in India and although I spent years outside the country pursuing my education, I always thought I would marry young and have a family with at least 2 kids. I have always been a stellar student and completed my MBA from Columbia Business School in the US.
After graduation, while I was figuring out my career plans, I told my parents I was ready for an ‘arranged’ marriage as was/is quite prevalent in India. I moved back from NYC in 2008 and since then have been looking for the man of my dreams. Back then I was extremely picky about the kind of life partner I wanted and kept saying no to all set-ups by my parents. Years flew by and I became too old for an ‘arranged’ marriage. I did meet some great men through friends and even dated some of them but none of my relationships worked out.
I have always been fortunate with great jobs and wonderful friends but the only focus of my life has been ‘settling down’. I was never grateful for blessings in my life and did not realize that I was already ‘settled’, even without a man. I also, realized that while I wanted a life partner with all my heart, I was very commitment-phobic, having seen the terrible marriage of my parents. Any time someone would ask me if I had met anyone or when I would get married, I would say, “I am too old for love’,’ “my time has come and gone”, “I’ve missed the bus”, ” I’ll be a cat lady”, or “I’ll never have a family”. I said those things even though there is nothing I want more than to have a loving and committed romantic relationship. I even froze my eggs a few years back but gave up all hope of ever having a child as I did not want to be a single mom.
Finally, last September, I met someone in a coffee shop in Mumbai. Dhruv kept staring at me and left without approaching me. The next day I was on a dating app and found his profile on the app and out out of curiosity I swiped right and matched with him. It so happened that he was in the city only for a day and the app had picked up my profile even though he lived in another city and his location was set to Delhi. We took it as a sign from the Universe and started chatting on the phone. A few weeks later we met in Mumbai and really hit it off and began dating. Gradually, we fell in love with each other.
However, I discovered a few things about him which, although not big, were lifestyle choices. He smoked and drank a lot. When I visualized my partner, I had never wanted these vices in him. We began to fight a lot and I ended things with him. It’s been almost 3 weeks since we called off the relationship. But I love him very much and miss him quite a bit. We still exchange messages and speak on the phone sometimes. I am not sure if this is the right thing to do as it is not helping me move on.
I recently re-discovered The Secret and the LOA and have been consciously controlling my thoughts and feelings. I must admit that very often I get sucked into negativity but the good news is that I bounce back quicker now. I have placed full faith in the Universe. I have asked and now believe that I will get married in 2022. I don’t know how or to whom. But it is not my job to ask. I am just focusing on ‘receiving’. I trust the Universe and I fully believe that if Dhruv is meant to be my life partner, we will work things out, he will give up his habits and we will both make efforts to be with each other or we will both move on with no regret and total happiness. I have only gratitude in my heart for having met such a great guy.
Thank you, Rhonda and The Secret, for coming back in my life each time I have needed help. This time I promise, I will re-orient my thinking to a more permanent and positive place. I will write another story when I have manifested my love!
Thank you, thank you, thank you.