Do you ever just feel like you’re cursed when it comes to love? I know the feeling. I have been through every kind of heartbreak you can imagine. Cheated on, found out I was the other woman, used for my help, and mentally, emotionally and physically abused. There comes a time where you feel like a victim who just keeps getting the bad end of the stick.

My life got to the point where I was in a horrible relationship where neither of us really enjoyed each other anymore. But I looked at it as if there was no way I am going to get anyone else and if I don’t stay with him I may end up alone forever. Which scared me to death since one of my main dreams was to be a wife and mother. So I dealt with the fights, put downs, crying, and begging him to stay. Until one day I remembered The Secret. I had watched it years earlier and put it to use with certain things that I wanted in my life like money and jobs. I was so miserable at this point in my life that it seemed like the only ray of hope to improve my life.

I started with little things like mantras in the morning up of what I wanted. A gratitude journal which I wrote in at the beginning of the day and the end of the day. Subliminal audio recordings about love and success. Guided meditation about finding my soulmate. Writing a list of all the attributes I wanted in my perfect partner. A vision board of what my life would look like with my partner. Needless to say, I was completely invested in making my life better. I actually even took up fitness and dieting and lost 40lbs; not for anyone else but for me. During this time, my relationship came to an end. He was leaving for school and gave me an ultimatum: I go with him or the relationship was over. It was terrifying. I knew in my heart he wasn’t the one but it was so daunting to face the unknown to find someone new.

I chose not to go. Things ended, but not entirely. I did go to visit him out of desperation, only for it to end in a huge fight. I still didn’t want to give up and stupidly was trying to salvage what we had. We talked and I told him that I wanted to go back to calling him “babe” again. He told me that I couldn’t because we were not dating.

It was this pivotal moment where I knew I had to let go. The relationship was done and I had to let him and it go. I accepted it. Even though I cried and felt entirely hopeless I finally knew in my heart that this part of my life was over.

About a week after that, I was sitting on the couch with my dad watching football, feeling alone and sad. Within a few minutes I stopped the negative thoughts and told myself, you can sit here and mope or actually do something about your current state. I got on my phone and started looking at dating websites and decided on Match.com. My mind told me this was stupid but something inside me said just do it. So I did. I was a bit embarrassed to join a dating website, but I needed to open myself to all the possibilities of finding my soulmate.

I had a few conversations on the first day or two that were lukewarm. Then I started talking to this guy Josh. He was very attractive and fit, the physical description of what I wrote down months ago on my soulmate list. The more we talked the more I realized he fit other parts of my list. It got to the point where I didn’t want to stop talking to him because I was loving everything about him.

We decided to meet in person for dinner. I saw him and instantly felt a sense of comfort and familiarity. Our dinner lasted about 3 or 4 hours! We talked non-stop and it just seemed like this was where I was supposed to be. On our goodnight kiss I actually smiled the whole time during the kiss, which I had never done before. It was an overwhelming sense of happiness. I smiled the whole way home and I even woke up with a smile!

Within a week we said that we loved each other, which believe me was shocking for both of us. We are pretty level headed people and this hadn’t happened to either of us before. But when you finish each other’s sentences and can go hours just staring at each other, you pretty much conclude that you are soulmates.

We now live together, have a dog and we are getting married! We even want to have kids within the year! I never knew life could be this perfect and amazing.

I truly believe that you have to let go of the past to open up yourself up to what you want and deserve. Put away your old heartbreaks and bad luck, and make way for the new! It is scary, but I promise so worth it. If you feel you are not with the right person then do not waste another minute of your life trying to make it work. Be brave and focus on what you want and let it go to the Universe. Once I finally did that, I met my soulmate within a week! Trust and you will receive what you have always wanted.