Everybody wants to find “the one”, soulmate. I thought I found mine, in 2006. Everything was almost too good to be true and I was sooo in love…It turned out he was just playing with my feelings, using me, betrayed my trust. So it ended, and pretty much my will to live. It was the end of world to me, I really would not want anyone to suffer that much. I pretty much wanted to die, but I couldn’t, because of my dear dog. I was just 31 years old, life should begin and not end at that age! A couple of years I lived in a “fog”, very depressed and confused, and was thinking if I could ever be “me” and happy anymore again.
In 2010 I started to feel better, and somehow I hoped that maybe I could find a new love. I was scared of men, and had no self-esteem, but then I heard about law of attraction, and read books about it, including The Secret. I thought the dream man wouldn’t exist and that I’m not “worth it”… but then I just thought, that what if everything would be possible, then what would I want ? So I made a “poster” to myself, I put sentences, pictures, headlines, words from magazines etc. that described this dream man. I found an especially appealing picture from a clothes catalogue, a male model, who had dark hair and lovely, friendly smile. In the picture he had white t-shirt that had some black text/pattern on it. Another picture was man and a woman walking on a beach, they both had white shorts. Etc.
Many months passed by, and I almost forgot my poster. Then one beautiful day, in a market place, in the middle of the crowd, my eyes met with a handsome man. I’m very shy, but managed to force myself to talk to him. Later he called me and we arranged a date. I never forget the moment when he get up from his car. He has dark hair, and that day, he was wearing white t-shirt with black patterns and white shorts. Today, I still can’t understand how that can be possible!!! But if you have read The Secret, you know how the universe works, “your wish is my command”…;) But I still get shivers about that!
That romance lasted a couple of months, sadly not longer. But I’m so happy and grateful I got the chance to know him, even if just a short period of time, and we are still friends, and you never know what the future brings… The best thing is that he restored my faith to men, and to myself and I started to feel alive again, that’s the very best thing. I felt like a sleeping beauty, come back to life after 100 years sleep. Life goes on, don’t give up, that’s what I want to tell to everybody!!! No boyfriend at this moment, but I’m happy and balanced these days. I know that some day the real Prince charming will arrive…:)