I read at least one book on the Law of Attraction every year. For the past three years however, even though I would read the books, I couldn’t manifest anything more than a parking spot or something equally mundane.

My family life was also falling apart because of financial issues and I could just never come to terms with the fact that something in my thoughts had brought these situations to me. I blamed my adults for the situations, never once realizing that if it was a part of my reality, then I’d done something to attract it.

I’d been studying for my post graduation entrance exams and giving exams regularly. Even with a GMAT score of 690 and 4 years of good work experience, good extra curricular activities, I wasn’t getting selected at even the average MBA colleges. All I was getting was rejection and weird things would happen to delay my applications. If I did get selected to a good college, my family couldn’t get the money for me to study. No matter what I tried, nothing worked. Defeated, I gave up on it last year.

Within a month of me stopping to think about studying, my aunt offered to pay for my education if I got into a college I liked. I applied to every college I could but, I still couldn’t get accepted.

You see, even though I now had the money to study, I expected things to go bad or keep me from studying. And that’s exactly what happened.

This year, I decided to let a consultant handle my applications so that I could stop worrying about them. I started cleaning out my mental conditioning. I repeated affirmations to really be able to believe that I could study. I started keeping a gratitude journal and failed. I’d write in it for 2 to 4 days and then forget all about it. But I kept a Magic Rock and started repeating affirmations in the mirror. Daily.

Even during this year’s application process, I had a lot of delays and problems with my applications. I constantly shifted from belief to disbelief and fear. I didn’t feel gratitude for anything in my life. But I kept at it. Since I couldn’t feel gratitude, I tried to just accept the present as it was. I kept trusting that whatever happened was going to be good for me and worth my while.

And then, I started finding small things to be grateful about. I still had problems with my applications but now, I shifted from faith to gratitude to trusting the universe. This made my negative thoughts decrease substantially.

Three days ago, I started a gratitude journal. I figured, I’d write for as many days as I could.

Yesterday, I had a massive setback in my application procedure. And instead of the usual fear, I said to myself “I’ve worried for three years and it hasn’t helped. I’m living my worst case scenario of not studying and I’m surviving. I can get through this.” I kept myself busy doing things I loved and ate a box full of sweets just to keep myself from worrying. I couldn’t sleep all night so I spent all night watching one movie after the other. Around 7 am in the morning, I fell asleep, exhausted.

By lunch time today, I had an offer letter from one of the top 25 universities in the world, for their best program!!

I still haven’t figured out my visa application etc. but it’s all falling into place. This is my story and I hope someday you have one to share too.

Blessed be!