My boyfriend and I had just moved in together when a tragedy in my life threw me into a deep depression. Now keep in mind this is the man of my dreams. I was comfortable in the fact that I was going to marry him and have children with him.

My depression turned me into a very ugly person. My attitude was awful and I was hateful and mean to him, for no reason. He left me after a few months. I had to move out of a beautiful large house and am currently sleeping on the couch at a friends house. I am jobless, have no car, and no money in the bank.

I started watching The Secret again not too long after he told me he was leaving. During the couple of weeks he looked for an apartment I was very kind to him, helping him do anything he needed. He commented repeatedly on how he’s never had a girlfriend be so good to him after a break up, and how unique I am. He also told me how heartbroken he was because he had wanted to marry me, but he just couldn’t take the hate spewing from my soul. That shocked me, but when I looked back on everything I was spewing hate, through my attitude, my actions, my words. No wonder he wanted to leave!!

Since I started watching The Secret again, while he was looking for a place to live, we have had the most amazing conversations. He has shared things with me about his childhood and his abusive parents that I never knew. I knew they didn’t treat him right but I had no idea of some of the things they had done. He is calling me every day, most days twice a day, and I am still the first one he calls when he’s upset about something.

I know we will be boyfriend and girlfriend again soon. I want it with all my heart and soul, I know we will be married and have children together. But I also know that I had to lose him for a little bit in order to find myself. I have always looked to others and to things to make me happy. The Secret has taught me that only I can make me happy. I can’t stop smiling throughout the day, I am confident that $50,000 will come into my life soon to give me financial freedom, and I am confident he and I will be back together within a few weeks.

I will always keep the Secret in the forefront of my life, in everything I do. The businesses I want to start, while small, have the potential to make lots of money. I know they will be more successful than I ever dreamed, and that I will never have to work an office job again. My life, my attitude, my soul, my entire being has changed because of the Secret, and I know once he and I are back together, to me that being the biggest thing the universe has to do, that everything else, money, success, etc. will be like snapping my fingers.

My life is changed forever, my soul, my heart, is changed. I create joy for myself from the moment I wake to the moment I go to sleep.