So to keep it sweet and simple, I saw The Secret in the midst of getting over someone and I was really loving the LOA and the gratitude I was feeling. Not even a week after, I met someone and we started to talk and spend time together.

As with any story, I started to have doubts and insecurities. This guy had been really sweet to me and as positive as I would try to be, all I could think about was, “When will this end? What if it ends? What will I do?”

And without a doubt, my insecurities started to vibe and our relationship started to sour. He started texting me less, talking to me less, etc. He told me that he was getting busy with school and work but it was really that he was getting distant. I started getting desperate in terms of making it work and as a result, I started pushing him away.

So we basically stopped talking for a while and every time we came in contact, there would be some kind of misunderstanding and friction and all I could think about was, “What was I doing wrong? Why does he have to be this way?” and so on.

To keep it short, I wasn’t focusing on the good, that when I brought up a problem with him, he tried his best to fix it. Before, I said it didn’t seem like he was interested in me anymore and that he took too long responding to my texts and he would start to respond to me faster and such.

So I returned to The Secret. I was still practicing it, or trying to, during that period of difficulty, but as you know, with the events that were happening, it was hard to put my heart into it. Eventually, I let go of my fear of rejection and insecurities and woke up one day wanting to tell him how I felt about him. So I told him I liked him and didn’t think much about how I would feel if he didn’t feel the same. My intention was, because I really care about him, I wanted him to know that regardless of whether or not he reciprocated the feeling. Love should come freely.

Sadly he hadn’t responded to that and I acknowledged it and let it go. I told myself it’s okay. There’s plenty of time and I should give him his space to process that, if he needs it.

Then about a week later, I was talking to a friend about how I really wanted to see him and during that week I’ve been putting out the thoughts that I really want to see him, and my friend encouraged me to text him. So I did and interestingly enough, I didn’t feel insecure or desperate to be with him or see him. I simply asked him if he were free and wanted to see me, because I wanted to see him, and left it at that.

And today, he came over! I was, to be honest, quite nervous because given our past history I wasn’t expecting him to even come at all. There are still insecurities because I don’t know how he feels, but I’m trying to stay positive and I’m really enjoying the stories I’m reading here. 🙂

Lastly, I want to really thank Rhonda for sharing The Secret because it really has transformed me as a person. I started noticing all the little things that I have in my life to be thankful for and man, that’s just amazing.