Dear The Secret Team,

I just saw the film and now I’m reading the book. Even if nothing special happened (I mean, a lot of money, or my ‘fourth part’) to me since I saw that film (it was two days ago), I want to thank you, and Ursula Johnson who recommended it to me.

I’m a mother of two kids and so on… but what I want to tell you is that years ago I thought about suicide. I thought I won’t go on. I went to the hospital to ask for help but they just told me that I have a borderline disorder and I need to take the medicine they gave me every day and I won’t be “normal” for the rest of my life. And I said, come on, I don’t believe that, and they answered that everyone with a borderline disorder would say that. It was a circle of hell.

But then I started to be thankful for everything I got. And I saw that it wasn’t less… it was a lot. And my life started to feel great, even if I didn’t earn so much money. But step by step now, everybody is telling me what a great mom I am, everybody is telling me how smart I am, and everybody predicts that I will be rich and famous and definitely beloved by everyone because I am a special kind of person. Nobody is putting it into a question.

And suddenly I meet so many people who give me something (even if I know them since 10 years), a new project to be recommended as a great event manager, English speaking practice (I work with a lot of Americans), a smile to make my day as perfectly as it could be, kisses from my boys with the words “I love you mom” without any rewards and whatever.

A few weeks ago I met Ursula Johnson; she’s an advisor for any questions and she told me to watch “The Secret”. And now I know what happened to me since I decided to keep my life, since I decided to be good. So many people are telling/asking me, “How are you doing it, what are you doing, you are a single mom, working a lot and you look so young and pretty and your boys are sooo amazing?” And it’s because I decided to go on being thankful and with a lot of love, with a lot of smiling, with a lot of fun, even if it seems to be a hard day.

So now I’ll get my money and my ‘fourth part’ (me in addition to my two boys are three already).

Best wishes from the definitely great capitol of Germany.

Bettina