You can make a change
I saw a lot of difficult things growing up – I was surrounded by violence and negiativity. As I grew older, I realised that I was suffering from depression as a child which only got worse as I grew up. I attemped to harm myself and ended up in hospital after taking an overdose. I felt ugly and unwanted. I never had a close relationship with my family, I didn’t have many friends. I was in an abusive relationship, I felt insecure and I thought if I left him I would never find anyone else who would like me.
I was off work for almost a year, I was taking antidepressants and I was also going for counselling. At that point in my life, I didn’t think things would get any better for me. I thought there was no hope and things would never change.
One evening I decided to find a book from my mum’s libary and hoped that by reading it, it would distact me from the negative thoughts in my head. As I was searching for a book, I came across The Secret. I began reading this book and I knew from then, that I could make a change and I didn’t need to continue with the medication or the therapy! It was me that needed and could make a change with my thoughts alone.
I focused on all the things I wanted and I slowly started to see a change; My parents stopped arguing, I went back to work, and I felt like I was getting there. A year later I managed to get the confidence to leave my partner when I met someone else.
These may only be little changes but these are the things I wanted and when I felt like there was no hope, there actually was… all I had to do was focus on what I wanted. I am continuing to focus on the things I want and I am grateful to Rhonda for helping me find the strength within to believe and change my life 🙂