You Are Never Alone.
For the past three years I have been battling with anorexia. I also felt lonely because when I left Poland at the age of 11, I had to leave a lot behind. I found it really hard to accept myself for who I am, and because I couldn’t love myself I was sure nobody could love me either. I attended many after-school activities such as ballet, acting, choir or athletics club, because I thought that if I was able to do everything perfectly I would feel better about myself. I didn’t realize that I actually didn’t enjoy most of the extra activities and by continuing this way I was becoming even more miserable.
Last year I went to visit my family in Poland, and my auntie’s boyfriend who was a very calm and happy person, gave me this wonderful book. He said, “I learned The Secret. Now it’s your turn.” At first I didn’t take much notice of the book, read a few pages and put it somewhere in the back of my mind.
One day, about a month ago, things got really bad and I just didn’t know what to do. I felt lonely and the only thing that kept me going was knowing that if I really wanted to, I could always end my life. Then I picked up The Secret…
It helped me SOO much!! I am finally starting to discover who I really am. A while ago I didn’t think I would be able to look into the mirror and smile, but now I do so every day. I know what my real passions are, so I stopped taking part in anything I don’t enjoy, and only do what makes me happy. I love playing the violin and I have recently passed my grade 7 examination, and I have me grade 8 exam soon (I know it’s going to go well). I also started writing a diary to capture the wonderful moments in my life. Whenever I feel that unwanted negative thoughts are taking over, I call my family or visit a friend. Now I know that I have never really been alone, I just didn’t want to accept the love that was offered to me, because I felt that I didn’t deserve it.
There is still a lot I have to learn to be able to stand up and say ”I am a COMPLETELY happy person”, but I know I am going to achieve this happiness because I believe, and I wish that same happiness for everybody in this world 😉