Hello everyone! Wow, as each day goes by and I continue to practice the LOA, I still manage to get blown away by all the ‘winks’ I get from the Creator. By ‘winks’ I mean things that could be described as serendipitous (coincidence) when in fact they are reminders from the Creator that your prayers have been heard.

I’m turning 31 in the fall, and I’ve never been in a serious relationship, in fact, the longest relationship was with a guy who damaged my self esteem (it’s fixed now 🙂 and we were together less than eight months! I met a guy a few months ago, we started dating and I fell in love with him…hard! There was a problem, he was engaged to be engaged (yeah I know right?) but apparently he was in an ‘open’ relationship. We came to an agreement that that wouldn’t work and are now friends.

Now I know what you’re thinking, “that’s all kinds of red flags!” Yes. That is correct. But here was my reasoning…in the past, I had given up on romance. I would fall for a guy, get impatient and I would move on. With this guy I decided that I wouldn’t give up. I would stay positive and focus on the outcome of he and I together and happy, no matter how long it took. After all, he came into my life when I wasn’t looking, so why not?

It’s been about six months, a rough six months at that, and I have finally reached a place of letting go. I gave the Universe my order, asked the Creator for guidance and I let go. I’m not exhausted by thinking of him all the time and I have no urges to text, call, email, chat, send a Messenger Pigeon, etc. I have finally let go. But for the past few days, I’ve been getting second thoughts about ‘us’ in the future.

I asked the Creator for guidance this morning during my prayers and again I’m surprised by the speed in which what I ask for is delivered. In truth, I wasn’t even asking for guidance for him I was asking for guidance, ‘winks’ and other signs that any number of the goals I have set had been heard loud and clear and the Universe was working on them. I guess “in general” is what I was trying to say, but as long as something is in your heart then you don’t have to say it for the Creator to know it.

Anyhow, after breakfast on my flower filled balcony with a view of the sea, I remembered I have so very much to be thankful for, and I am. I am so happy and grateful it brings tears to my eyes. I am beautiful (former beauty queen), I speak five languages, I’ve seen so much of the world I’m now in percentages, I have three degrees and have the very real goal of not only teaching at my former community college, but bringing an African-American studies program there in addition to other ethnic studies programs. In other words, I have nothing to worry about. I thought that I had been single all this time in preparation for this guy. I thought I had been tempering myself all these years for him, but I might not be wrong but I might be… ‘mistaken’ (yeah I still have issues with admitting to the “w” word :).

This morning, I tried to get on a main website and it was down, so I tried for the college I wanted to look at and that was down too, although all the search engines were working just fine. I closed my browser and noticed my Secret Daily Teachings widget and clicked on it. This is what it said:

“We are not able to see everything in our future, but the supreme power of the Universe can see every possibility. In terms of relationships, you may be convinced that someone is right for you when in truth they may not be. You may be asking for a harmonious, happy, loving relationship with a particular person, but if the Universe can see that you are not able to have that happy relationship with that person, the Universe will not bring them to you. Ask for a harmonious, happy, loving relationship, and then allow the Universe to deliver your perfect partner to you—whoever they may be.”

*Gasp! Right? Thank you! Thank you Creator so much for hearing my prayers as always! So that’s what I’m going to do. In the end, that’s all I want anyway, and I’ve waited this long so why not? 🙂 And besides, this guy came into my life for a reason.

I had first come across The Secret in 2007, used it lazily and then forgot about it until this February 2010. I had started to use the LOA to attract a serious relationship with this guy, and then it spilled over into all areas of my life. I have never been happier! So, everything does happen for a reason and I am so happy and thankful that the Creator sent him to me as he did—complications galore and all, because if it was easy I can honestly say that I would not be in the spiritual place I am today.

Thank you Creator and thank everyone here because reading your stories is daily therapy for me. I’ll talk to you again when I’m in my harmonious, happy, loving relationship with my perfect partner, whoever that might be.

XOXO