What You Need Finds You
As a teen I had figured out The Secret on my own. I don’t know how and I can’t explain it, all I know is that I was living it. This happened by perfect accident. I didn’t have a name for it, and I didn’t do it on purpose, all I knew was that everything just seemed to work for me. I didn’t need to try in school, it was like I could absorb the books without reading them. When I wanted something I would reach into a pocket of an article of clothing that I hadn’t worn in a while and there would be more than enough money to have it. Everything was perfect in my life.
Eventually I decided I wanted a husband; not just a boyfriend, I was done with that, I wanted something substantial and long lasting. By fluke I attracted him through a freshman in my after-school drama program. I had not spent much time with this girl nor did I know her well, but for some strange reason right before Valentines Day I called her to chat. We got on the topic of Valentines Day and how I wished I could find a husband, and right as I said that her brother walked in the door. She got excited. “Oh my god I have a brother, I totally forgot I have a brother. I’ll have to call you back!” And she hung up on me. I shrugged it off and didn’t give it much thought other than she must be crazy to forget her own brother. Five minutes later she called me back and told me I was going to marry her brother and hung up again.
Now, eventually I did get to talk to him and he was exactly what I wanted other than the fact that he was a very angry and cynical person by nature. Figuring I could break him since I had all my friends, and unwilling to overlook the amazing coincidence of the situation, I decided to embark on this journey.
Unfortunately after a few years he had bogged me down with his complaining and anger. We began breezing through jobs one after another. We never had money, we fought all the time, he was going on personal sites and trying to cheat. Everything that I had wanted to avoid was right there in my every day. I began to forget what I had taught myself and regarded it as hokus pokus hippy dippy tripe (words courtesy of my husband ).
We ended up getting pregnant right as we had decided to dissolve the situation (more divine intervention), and decided to give it one more go for the sake of our child. Less than a month after she was born my husband’s aunt who he had not spoken to in years wanted to come meet the baby; with her she brought The Secret. I was astounded to hear the teachings in the movie and couldn’t shake the revelation that what I had done was real! I had discovered something huge and let it go. I allowed someone else to take my power and ingrain their ideas into my subconscious.
Now, at first I was mad and resentful towards my husband for taking it away, but then I realized that I too was to blame because I had relinquished my power of thought to him. I chose to believe him. I knew I needed to do some soul searching and regain my control over my destiny.
Eventually I grew to love him more because I realized that I had not appreciated what I had. I had taken it for granted and by losing it I gained respect for it and every small piece of me that was still there.
I started to rebuild myself from the ground up. I knew it was the only way to make a happy life for myself, my husband, and my daughter. It was so hard to ground myself when my husband was not changing, but I found strength in other people’s stories and remembering how it had worked for me in the past.
Two years later: I have lost all my pregnancy weight and am in better health than I was before my daughter. My husband has come around and started to allow me to teach him what I know, which in itself helps me to have more power over my thoughts and gives me more opportunities to be thankful. I am overwhelmed with happiness when I see my husband succeed at something he thought was impossible. He now owns his own renovation company. I am thankful that I can take my daughter to the store and if she sees something I can buy it for her. I don’t have to try and explain to a two year old that “we can’t afford it” because I KNOW we can. We have come so far in just two years that everyone is astonished. And I am excited to teach my daughter this from the first day on cause I know she will create immaculate things in the world.
If you have a chance to teach what you know to someone else please do, and don’t give up if they don’t swallow it the first time. This truly is something everyone on the planet needs to know!
Thank you so much for reminding me how truly amazing and wonderful life is. Thank you for creating The Secret movie and sharing it with the world!