What I have done
As it is with everyone else, I realized the impact of what I have been doing to a fuller extent than I did before. Yet I knew what I was doing before, however I questioned it repeatedly. The Secret only made it so I actually quit questioning the things I could do, and actually have faith it was real.
My life can be best explained as the proverbial seed that landed on rocky soil. But still I persevered not knowing any better. I grew up with alcoholic parents, watched all my siblings die one by one throughout the course of my childhood, I was abandoned by my suicidal mom a few times because the grief over the loss of her children was too much for her, and was separated from my father for about 25 years. I was a homeless teenager because I refused to stay home with a step dad that was a little too sexually affectionate for my taste… I was not about to let him touch me and yadda yadda yadda. My stubborn streak saved me so many times!
So I ended up marrying an abusive alcoholic and going to college and raised 3 children.
But the strange thing was I have always been aware of a power with in me. I have always had psychic abilities which have saved me from falling through the cracks so many times in my life. I know now it was all real! And so now for the great stuff.
Throughout my traumatic marriage and the abuse my children and I had suffered from my husband, I always held hope things would work out. But they didn’t, because I was too blind to realize I could not fix anyone but myself. I gave up and left him and took my children with me.
When my oldest daughter grew up I began to see the effects of her childhood. She was out of control and hard to live with. We lived in the country and in her 17th year she wanted to live with grandma in the town for the summer to have a summer job. There she met this boy and they decided to drop out of school and get married. Of course I tried to stop it but it was useless. So knowing it would not work out I walked around with a huge hole in my heart every single day.
She got pregnant and we had them married according to their wishes. It wasn’t long after that her husband started doing crystal meth. Their marriage was over in a year, and she was pregnant with her second child. So she got divorced and became very wild. Partying all the time leaving her kids at the sitters for a week or two and every chance she got to go out drinking and going through men constantly. I was overwhelmed with worry for her and my grand children. I could not say anything to her without her going ballistic on me, so I did the only thing I could, I prayed and meditated on it.
I was lucky enough to work at home making massively multiplayer online games as an independent contractor, so I had time to light my candles and pray 12 or more times a day that she would finally get what she needed to stabilize her life and my grand children’s lives. My exact words were she would meet her perfect match who would be an excellent husband and father for her children, who would make good money so she would not have to struggle financially anymore, and they would be happy with each other so she would settle down. I did this for 3 months every day.
Then one day she called and asked me to go with her to a night club. I did, and there she met this young man. And guess what? It all turned out exactly as I prayed. And I was there to see it happen. She is an excellent mom, he is an excellent husband and father, and they are stable, prosperous, and family oriented.
But I didn’t stop there. There was another big issue to fix, that of my ex-husband and the harm he had done to us. He was dying by then from alcoholism and obesity. It would have been easier for us to just let him die, but I knew that was not the answer. The answer was for us all to heal, so I spent another 4 months working on that in meditation and prayer. I prayed the relationship between my ex and his children would heal and that he would choose to live for the sake of his young son. So one day my middle daughter went to visit her dad to borrow some cook books. She came back and told me he said he had decided to live for his son and he has worked on repairing his relationships with his children. His violence and abuse ended. He lost all his weight and as far as I know quit drinking. We are a real family again. I won’t go back to him but we have remained friends and the children have both their loving parents all the same.
As for my father, I knew he was close to dying, especially since he was born around 1911 or 1913 (my dad was old enough to be my mother’s father). I had been looking for him since I was 12. I had not seen him since I was 4. I always carried his picture with me. So by the time I was around 29 I was frustrated over my lack of progress in finding him. So I laid there one night as I was falling asleep and just plain exclaimed, “Please, I want to find my Dad before he dies. I just want to say I love you before it is too late!”
Within a few days my friend, mom, and I were looking through my mom’s old photo albums, and a memorial card from my grandfather’s (my dad’s father) funeral fell out. It was from Fort Collins Colorado. A voice told me to take a chance. So I immediately picked up the phone and called the Fort Collins information and found my dad’s brother, who then gave me my dad’s phone number. He was dying, and I actually got to go to him in Washington state to tell him in person that I loved him before he died.
Heh, want to know how I got such a great job working at home doing what I loved? I used to fantasize about doing great artistic stuff on the computer, and it filled my soul with joy to think of it. I was the restaurant’s company computer guru and artist/Graphic Designer at the time. One day out of the blue my boss got a phone call from a friend who was looking for an artist that knew how to use a computer. He wanted to start his own Massively Multiplayer Online gaming company. Back then it was rare for an artist who knew how to use a computer, there were no schools for such a thing, it was at the beginning of the graphic MMP online gaming industry. Still on the phone with this man, my boss turned around and asked me if I knew anyone who knew how to use a computer and was also an artist, and I just smiled and said “DUH!”, and she laughed and said she certainly knew someone, it was me. I got the job and created 2 incredible virtual worlds. The first one all by myself. I did that for about 8 years.
Then when I was working on my computer science degree I was asked to teach the media arts for middle school and high school. I then remembered how in my 20s I used to fantasize about teaching children and making a difference in the world. My kids created the most incredible virtual worlds and won many awards and contests.
Every kind of job I have ever dreamed about having has fallen into my lap. Every incident of healing I have ever wished for has happened. Every car I have ever dreamed about having I have easily gotten. As I look back, everything I ever wanted and needed has been given to me.
Well, I could certainly go on and on about this, but this is already way too long. Trust the Secret, it is real and it does work. Always has, always is, always will. If I can change a family with insurmountable issues as mine has had, then nothing is unsurmountable, everything is possible!