Up until I discovered The Secret I lived life on a day-to-day basis. I didn’t dream too big, I didn’t set big goals, and I was fearful of letting myself be too hopeful in fear of disappointment. I just moved through the motions and let life take me where it may.
After an intense 2 year Massage Therapy program at a Private School, I was preparing to complete a set of board exams to become registered. I graduated at the top of my class, and was even my college’s valedictorian. But as I entered my board exams my confidence and faith faltered. I left the exam feeling miserable and feeling like I had failed. I told everyone who asked about it that I was sure I had failed, that I had done so many things wrong and that I felt like I would have to do a re-write. I even went as far as to apply for a re-write before even receiving back my marks. Little did I know that I was sending out this frequency to the universe, and was setting myself up for failure.
The entire time I waited for my results I was stressed, angry, and anxious. If anyone asked about the exam I made a negative remark about it, or complained at how long it took to receive the marks. So it came as no surprise to me when I got my results back and had all my negative thoughts confirmed by a failing grade. My instructors and classmates were astonished because I had never failed an exam in my life. Several instructors actually thought there was some sort of mistake, that there was no way I possibly could have failed. I cried for hours and felt despair, and did not know how I would possibly be able to re-do the exam and pass.
On the day of my re-write I tried to summon up courage, but still blundered through the exam. I made errors where I normally wouldn’t make errors, talked much too quickly, and stammered over words that I normally say with ease. I left the exam feeling once again, that I had failed.
Then I remembered The Secret. I had used it years ago to obtain the man of my dreams, and I am happy to say we are still together 5 years later, and we are still both crazy for each other. Over time I had forgotten to apply the Secret. I habituated using The Secret in my relationship, but had neglected to use it in other areas of my life.
So I started to re-read the book, to re-watch the DVD, and to surround myself with positive people, thoughts and ideas. I convinced myself that I had already passed my exam. I began planning out my future job, what supplies I would need, and started gathering together all the materials I needed to mail out for my registration. I started imagining myself being registered, having an established clientele and practicing in a clinic. Any time doubts started to enter my mind, or I started to think of all the things I had done wrong on my exam, I quickly changed my train of thought to something else, something more positive.
Within a few weeks I received a letter in the mail, and saw that it was from the organization that handles the registration exam. I opened the letter and the first word I saw was “Unfortunately”. I stopped reading it right then and there. I took a deep breath and told myself this was not the correct letter for my exam, this was something else because I had passed my exam. Sure enough as I read more into the letter it was regarding the failure of the first exam I had wrote. Instead of letting myself feel the negative feelings again, I tossed the letter aside and forgot about it. I kept thinking positive, and kept feeling good.
That same evening as I was watching a movie I received an email. It was my marks from my second exam.
I had passed!!
I fully believe that faith, happiness and gratitude are the reason why I passed that exam, and I am so thankful to now be on my way to being registered massage therapist.