Two Perfect Hours.
I can not believe I am writing this only a few hours after I received the email I have been waiting for!
I struggled through my bachelor’s degree and made more than my fair share of mistakes, which resulted in me graduating with great difficulties. I got a job faster than anyone else in my batch, just 2 months!
However, the environment of the office was very toxic, my boss kept asking to overlook some legalities. Eventually I left the company in a not-so-nice way. Which only gave me the time and energy to focus on what I wanted to do with my life.
See, a few months after my employment I was contemplating how my job is the cause of my unhappiness, and as I was thinking, the idea of grad school in South Korea crossed my mind. I swear it was like a hurricane inside of me where it just felt right. I have learned how to follow my intuition, and this time it was giving me the strongest feeling of desire I have experienced in my life. I decided on the spot this is what I want to do. I got to work and got my papers in order, hit a few road blocks here and there but kept thinking that this is all worth it and moved on.
I left my apartment, and moved back with my parents which was a set back. It was even worse that the house was empty because my parents are on an overseas vacation. All the time alone in the house had me thinking the worst of thoughts. Why am I the only one who can not make money like all my siblings? ‘What am I doing with my life? Why am I so unsuccessful in life?
I come from a highly educated and well off family and living again among them and seeing the luxuries had me thinking that I can never achieve that or anything else. Why would they accept me? My GPA is not only low, but I also got suspended during my studies.
And as the law of attraction states; I got what I thought. Here comes the rejection email. I was crushed. I did everything the law of attraction told me to. I visualized, imagined, prayed to God many, many times and what do I get? I was buried in my dark thoughts, I had a huge fight with my sister, called my mother crying and begging her and dad to come home, and isolated myself from everyone. I had believed that only rejections would follow.
A few days later I received The Secret Scrolls email saying that steps will be provided by email, and I should follow them to receive things. The dates coincided with the date I was due to hear back from another university. THE university I wanted with THE major I fought for. I thought, perfect.
Yesterday I was thinking I should pamper myself. I filled the tub and decided to clear my head. No music, no distractions, just me and my thoughts. I thought nothing major other than how good the hot water felt and how amazing it smelled. I decided to go to the salon to get a facial, something I never had the time or money for before. While I was getting spoiled by the nice ladies, the thought came to mind that I can not ask for anything more. My entire family is healthy and happy and we have a good relationship. They all love me and I love them. I am so relaxed and content that I really can spend the rest of my life on this perfect moment.
That was what gratitude felt like, which I have not experienced before. Two hours of perfect bliss.
After coming home I saw that a friend of mine sent me a voice note with him playing guitar, just as a present. He has never done that before and my heart fluttered with joy hearing him play.
I decided that I was happy for the rest of the day and that my life is perfect as is. I said a prayer to God whole heartedly: “Please God, I want the acceptance to university. If not, than I am thankful anyway for everything”. Then I decided to go to bed. I opened my email looking for that gratitude scroll. Junk email popped in. Dismiss. Dismiss. Dissm…what? “Decision of Admission”. I opened it with a strangely calm heart, and I was admitted. On a scholarship! To one of the top ranking universities!! The email was too early, the decision was not supposed to be out until a week later.
I believe those two hours I spent in complete gratitude are the reason. And because I gave love unconditionally to myself and everything around me I will be getting a master’s degree in Brain Engineering in South Korea.
Thank you God for everything.