Tussle with Odds
I am a Hindu and my husband a Muslim. During 10 years of our courtship I just kept telling myself that God loves me; he will do the needful; I dont have to worry he will make Asif my husband. Believe it or not my marriage was a real smooth affair in spite of being a Hindu-Muslim wedding.
Six months later I took the ill-health route, all female gynaecological issues, fibroids, cysts, wrong doctors, wrong diagnosis, faulty surgery, over-doses of medicines, and corrective surgeries one after the other. I was not more 36kgs weight in the first four to five years of marriage. I was bed ridden, I could not move on my own. I was a skeleton in bed. My mom prayed to God, either cure me or end my life.
This also took a toll on our financial situation, my income had long stopped, my husband was stressed with my illness and the recession made him give up his 15 year old business. There were loans, credit cards bills, home loan etc.
One day a friend told us about a book “The Secret”. We purchased the book and I started reading it, and the change started. Very slowly but definitely, I started healing, my husband got a good job, he started paying off his loans. Life improved greatly.
But, due to health issues I could not conceive and Im in my 40s taking fertility treatment. I have undergone 2 IUI cycles but failed. Next month we are starting IVF. Today I am going to buy The Power book. I think last few months I was culturing a lot of fear and negativity inside me, but now Im going to wash it off by re-reading The Secret and practice positive thinking. Yeah this time I will be successful and my healthy and beautiful babies will be on their way into my life 🙂
Friends please pray for me and send me positive baby thoughts and wishes that Im welcoming them with open arms.