I am a 19-year-old female who is driven by self-improvement and new-age books. My hobbies are reading, painting, baking, cooking, and writing motivational quotes in my Dream Book. I am pretty knowledgeable for my age.

I was a free spirited, rebellious teenager who assumed I knew the world around me. Overly confident in choosing my choices and making my decisions and friends wisely. I never expected hell to knock at my door. Boy, was I definitely wrong. I never thought I would go through a pregnancy at such a young age. Fifteen was a frightening age to become pregnant. Especially when your partner is three years older and has barely experienced life for himself. I was not even close to catching a glimpse of it. I know what you’re probably thinking: “Who gets pregnant at 15?”

Well, it was a rocky experience for me. I suddenly became isolated in a black hole, searching for contentment, respect, and morality from the father of my soon-to-be child. I was living in a world of verbal, physical, and mental abuse. It was so hard to deal with such disrespect and abuse.

Then, when I was in the twenty-second week of my pregnancy, I came to find out at a follow-up ultrasound that my baby did not have a heartbeat. How my heart sank into oblivion; my world was crushed in a split second. My world turned into a planet of darkness, and I just felt a terrible numbness in my body. My thoughts were so negative, and afterward, trust was nowhere to be found, and love for myself and anybody else was hiding under sadness. Nothing but negativity was attracted to my life. Drugs, negative influences, negative settings, negative feelings. My freshman and sophomore years were miserable, and little did I know that my overindulgence in self-pity was only getting me deeper into this black hole That I had dug myself into.

Slowly but surely, my life started to change once I changed my mindset to positive thinking. I changed the thoughts and vibrations that used to place me in unpleasant places. I started to exclude from my closed circle all the people that were always were getting into trouble. I started exercising, painting, reading, and I was finding myself developing a high willingness to learn and accept change. Once I started placing myself around positive places and people, I started feeling more self-worthy despite the rough patches that I was left to sow up. It really is not that complicated once you think deeply about it. You must always have faith no matter how negative a situation may seem to be. Dwelling on things that do not make you feel good will certainly not make you feel better. They will only serve to make you feel more bitter, and to just attract more of those same things that you do not want! So you can not expect to feel like royalty when you have the mindset of a negative Nancy!!!

Thank you so much for The Secret.