Time to let go
I have a tenacious streak that is always looking for the right “angle,” a better, faster way, a solution. In other words, I really can get hung up in the “how” of things. With working with the LOA, I have been really challenged in this area and I still have to consciously monitor myself to let go of how. On the other hand, I also have a forgiving nature – so in that way I can let go of very hard emotional situations once I am aware of them quite easily and move on. I am telling you this because my husband and I have put a wish out to the Universe – we plan to move out of Wisconsin to a milder climate in about 2.5 years; after my son graduates high school. We made that decision around the end of 2010.
Fast forward to the last month. For some reason I have been bombarded with people questioning how I could move away from my extended family so easily. At first I wore my “badge of courage” that it’s easy to move away because I’m not that close to them. But the more I said that, the more my unfinished business was in my face. Then I remembered my Carl Yung “What you resist, persists” and realized that I was resisting letting go of the old hurts; mostly the feeling of being judged by them for my spiritual beliefs. Granted it’s true I have not been very close to most of my family for a long time – not for lack of trying to build that bridge. What I wasn’t acknowledging was that I was harboring a secret hurt that they chose not to meet me on that bridge. In a flash I’ve been able to start letting it all go – I don’t want to take this with me any further and certainly not into a new part of my life. The Universe brought this to my attention until I paid attention. Now if I could just figure out how to let go of “how” things are going to manifest for us to move so easily! I guess I better put that wish out there too or perhaps the one I need to forgive this time is me for trying to work out how all the time!?