Yesterday (11/12/09) I had to travel for about 5 hours round trip for work so I thought this would be a great opportunity for me to listen to The Secret CD’s all the way through. Usually I have time to listen to just one here and there and I tend to listen to the 1st and the 4th ones the most.

When I first watched the movie about 9-10 months ago, I had a whole “wish list” of things I wanted to manifest in my life, including returning to a healthy body weight/size. You see, I have been “clinically obese” for about 20 years now and long since gave up on diets, etc. since they never worked. Interestingly enough, about 12 years ago, I came to a place of acceptance about my size and since then I have not gained any more weight. I should also mention that other than excess weight, I am very healthy.

So about 9 months ago, I set about manifesting my perfect weight and instead noticed my clothes getting tighter. So I stopped, figuring that I was doing something wrong and I didn’t want to gain any more. Fast forward to about 2 months ago and my work on finances, another troublesome area. I was experiencing the same issue I had with manifesting perfect weight – it seemed to be backfiring at times. I realized that when I “tried” to manifest money, I was still in fear about my current and past experiences, so of course I got more of it. I just could not seem to get the right feeling frequency. I then looked back on my life when finances were good and I realized that at those times I really wasn’t thinking about them at all, I was just in a good mind set because of other things going on in my life. So I decided that I would just think and do things that made me feel good and hopefully the money would follow – and it has been, albeit slowly.

Fast forward to yesterday while I was listening to the CD’s all the way through. Rhonda says at one point (I’m paraphrasing): everything is an inside job, the outer is just effect. CLICK! I got it on a level I never had before. The “acceptance” had stabilized me where I was at because that was the outer picture I accepted of me. The dieting and “trying to manifest” made things worse because they were done from a place of [you guessed it] fear and lack of belief. In that moment, I moved into complete faith that everything I want is a done deal and the only thing I need to do is be happy. Yesterday night, I noticed for the first time in months that my rings felt loose on my fingers again. Today as I dressed for work, my pants, which last week fit me fine are loose enough that I could pull them off without undoing the closures. And today I met with a person that I just saw 2 months ago who said to me “wow you’ve lost some weight since I last saw you.”

So I am here to tell you that time and size truly do not matter to the Universe just as Rhonda and the other teachers said. I dropped a whole size overnight! But more importantly, I feel slim, strong, healthy, abundant and most of all, happy. If you are having a hard time manifesting your wish list, the key is to feel good each and every day and the rest will follow. Honestly doing that makes it so much easier and more powerful because all of your attention and intention is on one thing – feeling good!