I grew up with my mother and stepfather. At 14 my parents split up, my relationship with my mother was never easy but this made it worse as she was having an affair and I couldn’t forgive her. My stepdad was distraught. When my mother finally left the family home I was 18. She didn’t want me with her. So I stayed with my stepdad.

When I was 19 he was diagnosed with cancer. He has asked me to move out so he could see I was ‘sorted’ before he died. I was not ready to look after myself. I was scared and naive. I got a flat and got into debt. A year later my stepdad died. I was totally devastated, he was so important to me, my main attachment. I felt so alone. I eventually lost my flat due to poor budgeting and began to sofa surf. Going from town to town, friends to friends, boyfriends to boyfriends. I had no anchor, no real home, no relatives to rely on. Just me working 2 jobs to try and make ends meet. Life was very tough. I struggled with drinking too much and mental health issues. At the age of 27 I met a man who became my husband. We had two beautiful daughters but 7 years into the relationship it was clear it was not going to work.

At around that point someone gave me The Secret DVD and it was a light bulb moment. What I had viewed had such an impact. To think that changing the way I thought could change my life seemed mind blowing. I thought I would try it as I was so unhappy. I began to study the law of attraction theory every day and began to feel life was changing slowly. I stayed in the marriage for a few more years.

Eventually, we divorced and I fell into another depression. All of my past difficulties also weighed very heavily on me at that time and I couldn’t seem to emerge from the weight of everything I had been through. The relationship with my mother over the years had been awful and I suffered emotional abuse at her hands.

Then I met the most amazing man who loved and adored me, who showed me what real love, loyalty and commitment meant. The man I’d always dreamed. Five years on we live in a beautiful house in the English countryside with my two daughters and we are engaged to be married. My life is the complete opposite of what it was. I was homeless at times with no family, just myself and my imagination. I used to dream of a life like I have now and I never ceased to believe that I could have it that there was no reason why I shouldn’t feel safe and loved. I never let go of my dreams even when I was at the darkest of places mentally. I used my mind to think my way to this point and there are always manifestations of my desires happening every day. From the car I drive to the type of relationships I have. I continue to think my way to happiness and consider that everyone including me deserves their best life.

Keeping thinking, keep dreaming, keep believing.

Tish x