Life Changing Revelation
I have always felt unusually spiritual my entire life. It is nothing I can explain easily. As long as I can remember I have loved nature in all forms… animals, plants, insects. Growing up I cared for many orphaned animals and spent most of my time in the woods exploring and noticing every minute detail in trees, rocks, streams, pastures, etc. I always felt more accepted here than with people.
As life went on and I went awkwardly through the teen years, I became more and more aware of how dysfunctional our family was. This was due to alcoholism and other deep-seated emotional problems. It left quite a bit of baggage that exists today. I think I saved myself from a lot of the fall-out by getting out at an early age.
I wanted to be independent and free of the ugliness. I did use alcohol on a frequent basis, which put me in ugly situations. Over time I drifted in and out of that cycle. I had children and stayed sober during that time mainly due to the alcoholic, drug-abusing spouse, and just stubbornness in general. Later, I found myself in a new relationship where drinking was very comfortable. I drank more and more until I realized how sick I was and quit to save my life, my job, my home, and my then almost-grown children.
All the while I have always felt an inexplicable bond with a higher power, but I was never able to commit to any one solid belief system. That is largely due to my questioning of perfection. If I could not see a belief system as perfect, how could I devote myself 100%? I always felt as though I was missing something.
I am a good person. I do right by others. I have so much love for everybody and every living thing, and share it continually, sometimes even going the extra mile when I, in fact, by all apparent reason don’t have to. Now I don’t mean I have done anything as great as some of my mentors, just little acts of kindness. It makes me feel so good.
Recently, I have had a turn of bad luck in my life. Actually my partner and myself are involved in a great deal of trouble that I won’t mention except to say that it was something done only between the two of us, and not hurting another soul.
A close friend of my partner’s one day asked him if he had read that book she had given him for his birthday many months before. When I heard that, I remembered hearing something about it on a talk show. I immediately picked it up and began reading. I could barely put it down. Every word, every page, spoke to me in a way I never felt before. The Secret made perfect sense and solidified my life-long feelings about our innate energy and being one with the universe. Although I have never been rich in numbers, I have always felt extremely blessed and grateful for all that I have.
Since devouring the book I have felt myself transformed to such a higher level I cannot even tell you. All is right with the world. I can handle whatever is coming in the future. I believe I have the power to bring about my destiny, as I have caused the bad things to happen in my life up until now. I now feel extremely “high on life” and optimistic about everything. I am re-inventing myself and have never felt more confident.
I want to share this with everyone, and am using every opportunity to share what I have learned. I also know that dis-believers just don’t get it. I have always been someone who needs proof to believe anything. I am the proof. I am a miracle. I have had many miracles bestowed to me before and after reading the book. One just has to believe. Sure there are folks out there who can read, and who then make wishes to test for results. Nothing. They don’t understand it is a state of mind, an awareness and a deep belief in the unseen power of our energy. For those people, all I can do is think the most powerful thoughts of love for them, and believe that they will eventually understand and accept – for their own well-being.
Thank You for letting me share. Love and blessings to each and everyone.