The light from God
I came to know about The Secret in mid-September this year, when I happened to catch a glimpse of it on Oprah show. It caught so much attention from me that a couple days later I went to the website to find out the story. Since I was jobless at that time, I couldn’t afford to buy either the book or the dvd. So I had printed the stories about those who have amazing experiences using The Secret, and read them over and over again. I cried when I read stories that really touched my heart. I really wanted the book and to see the movie. This is what I’ve been searching for, this is what I’ve been asking for, an assurance that everything is possible and life is just wonderful.
Let me brief my life in the past. I was growing up hating and hurting, so against the world. I hated my life because of my pains and disappointments, and I always believed that nobody cared for and loved me. I isolated myself from others, fearing that they would hurt me.
In 2003, my mother died of cancer. I was studying at a local university in Peninsular Malaysia that time, and I got to know about my mother’s death 4 days after the burial. It really killed me inside. My father told my other siblings and relatives not to tell me about it, fearing that it could affect my studies. But why? It did not make any difference to me. Nobody even told me that my mother was in a critical situation. I came home only to find my mother’s grave. From that time on, my hatred toward my father grew. I never felt pity when he was sick, I didn’t care anything about him. I was so cold toward my father. And I hated my life even more. To add to my misery, I had so much fear, so many worries, that they kept me living in my own dark world.
During a time when I got really depressed and had no one to talk to, because I believed that nobody would understand me, I had this knife in my hand, and I was intending to cut my other hand. But I didn’t dared to. I didn’t dare to do anything. I did not dare to face my life, my reality, to face and to know about the life outside my small cold world. Then I remembered God. Sitting on my bed, I prayed that he would let me see the light, that he would help me (this happened in 2004). Several months later, I don’t remember how, but I managed to have faith in myself and my life. I had bought books about personal development. My thoughts had been shifted to positive, but I always lost control in the end. But I never lost hope and faith. I became obsessed with personal development books. And this year of 2007, I became depressed again, but to my suprise, I could handle it! I got to overcome my depression, my fears, and my worries. But my fears and worries keep appearing in my head.
A couple weeks before I got to know The Secret, I prayed to God that he would show me the way to the truth, the way to light and religion as a way life. Then The Secret came to my life. I truly feel and believe it’s a God send. I had made a goal to have The Secret book a couple of weeks ago. Just yesterday I got The Secret book. I’m so grateful to the God of the universe, and to the team of The Secret. You guys are really amazing!!!!!!!! For sharing The Secret with the world!!!!!! Thank you so much!!!! Now I know I have an assurance for this life. I want to appreciate life. Everybody should.
That’s all for now. Oh, I’m so excited!!!!!!!!