In my prior thoughts I held myself captive by an abusive childhood. Its patterns were set so deep in my mind and its thoughts were constantly churning throughout my head on a daily basis. The effects of this pain I carried was indeed a force field for attracting the same like behavior from those around me, because I could not let the pain go.
Several years ago I realized that if I truly wanted to be free of this pain I had to remove myself from the environment of pain. I relocated myself and my 3 youngest children across the country to start a “new” life. But the move itself did not ‘fix’ the problem. My mentality was still full of the swirl of pain. I saw myself as a female who was raised to be used by all who came and chose to use.
It was not until a friend used a visualization exercise with me that things began to change. In this exercise he told me to picture every hurt and every pain as a rubber band. Each rubber band was wound together to make a ball. I began to visualize this rubber band ball, filling it up with my hurts and pains, watching it mentally grow until I could hold it with two hands.
After making this ball, my friend instructed me to let it go, to really let it go. I did. I knew I could. I knew I could be free of all that hurt.
I had lived 40 + years in so much fear. Fear of being hurt. Fear of being used. Fear of not being loved. And yes, I fulfilled that fear every day. Now the epiphany was, letting go. I felt free. I felt release. I felt alive. For the first time in my life I felt like ME!
I was so used to letting others decide my life for me that I could not even imagine my being in charge of me and my thoughts. I slowly became more aware of how my perception of myself was creating my reality. I had to change what I thought about me and those around me. Every thought I had, or was given to me, I measured, turned over in my mind, and made it MY thought. I began to take control of my destiny.
About 7 years later, this past January, I was given The Secret. I left it sitting on my night stand for about 3 weeks. One night around 3 a.m. I had difficulty sleeping and while sitting in my bed I felt compelled to put the DVD in and watch it. I knew within seconds I was meant to watch this DVD. I swelled with tears and knew that the Universe, God, and all the angels were beckoning me to take notice of what is there for me, if I but believe.
I chose to believe. My bank accounts are filling, my joy is abundant, my relationships are harmonious.
I started a new business in March of this year. I know without a shadow of a doubt that this is a successful business. I know that the hand of the Universe is cradling us and giving to us what we ask for. I take control of my thoughts, banishing negative and creating what I ‘want’ for my life.
The Secret is true, real, effectual in whatever way you think. Where the mind goes the behind will follow! I get it!