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Thank you Krayzee in Boy-See, Idaho
Submitted by: Cindy
ArizonaI am in my fifties, learning to be me. Thank you! Universe! Thank you Krayzee! Thank you for starting this amazing journey!!! I can finally be myself!!!
Thank you Krayzee,
A few years ago I found The Secret. I have the book, the CD, I have watched the movie, the Oprah show, and on and on. It just was not working for me. I would get one step ahead and end up two steps behind. Who was I? Why wasn’t life becoming easier? Why wasn’t anyone happy? Why were relationships breaking down? It just seemed to get harder.
I read your story this morning and it all fell into place. I was sabotaging myself… here is my story:
I grew up in a very abusive single parent family. My parents divorced when I was not even two, and we were hidden from our father until he passed away when I was six. Why? I remember my mother saying to my face that I was just like the no good #*####, and she wished that she had never had me. There was nothing that I could do that was right. As a child I would work myself into a dizzy, just trying to get her approval, but I was just like my father. Why couldn’t I be like my siblings, they always did things perfectly. I was constantly being compared to their lives. They were perfect.
I have always been a complacent person, giving way to other’s demands and wishes. When I would try anything in life – a career, family, money, friendship, marriage – it failed. I always gave in and gave up!! It was my fault!!! Everyone’s unhappiness became my obsession to fix and make perfect.
Today I read your story on this website. You hit the nail on the head, I was still trying to be that perfect little girl, trying to please everyone. Perfection at its best. Trying to create a perfect world and making myself miserable. Putting me last and everyone first was the icing on that perfect little cake.
Thank you!!! I thank the Universe for you!!!
Now, I look forward to an imperfect life. A life where I just have to be myself. I am so happy. Mistakes are magnificent – they are life. A life where the universe accepts us all for who we are. I don’t have to be perfect. I don’t have to please anyone! I just need to be me!!! It is like having a weight lifted off my shoulders. Who is this person? Right or wrong!!! I just need to be me!!!
Thank you!! Blessings and praise!! Loving life and being an imperfect me!!!!