SOMETHING INCREDIBLE HAPPENED TO ME TODAY!
Wow. I donât even know where to start.
(THIS SEEMS SAD AT FIRST, BUT TRUST ME IT GETS BETTER!)
I have been in the thralls of deep depression and anxiety for a long, long time. I started failing my college classes and having very, very frequent anxiety attacks. The kind where you think you actually just might die.
I decided to take a break. No school and no work. Months went by and I still had all of the negativity, but now I just had way too much time to think about it. Things started to get worse. I would spend more time sleeping in bed then I would be awake. I didnât want to eat and couldnât possibly think about trying to do anything remotely productive. I was filled with self-loathing and became very suicidal.
Money became an issue and I would try to look for a job, I would get an interview here and there but nothing would show up. I really dreaded the thought of working, but the thought of not having money was even more anxiety-inducing.
I started to practice meditation and positive thinking, and soon after things started to make much more sense. I would read stories on this website as often as I could. I would wake up feeling refreshed instead of angry that my days all seemed to run together. I started to really love myself and became accepting of the things I once despised about myself.
I decided to apply to Trader Joeâs. It seemed like a great work environment with awesome benefits. I already knew some of the people who worked there and they all really wanted me to get the job too.
I applied and got through two interviews! I remained positive.
Unfortunately, I didnât get the job and my heart broke. I cried and cried and couldnât understand what I did wrong.
This triggered my depression again. The voice in my head was telling me that I wasnât good enough and couldnât ever do anything right.
After lots of self-battling and arguments with my loving husband I started looking for a job once more.
I meditated and thought happy thoughts as often as I could and applied to one single place and put all my faith and joy in that one restaurant.
Long story short(er) I just got home from getting hired from that one place and it seriously is perfect for me!
It is a Vegan restaurant (which I love, since I am a vegetarian!), great pay, great hours, short commute, an incredibly loving and supportive work environment, free parking (those of you who live in Los Angeles know how awesome that is!!), close to the ocean, lots of room for promotion, everything I wanted and so, so, SO much more. It honestly is perfect for me in every single way and a much better fit for me than Trader Joeâs (which was already really awesome).
Basically, what I learned is that sometimes we donât always get what we want, in my case a job at Trader Joeâs, because something much better is coming our way.
Once I learned to really, really love myself and was open to positive change everything just fell right into place.
I am on cloud 9 right now. I am so full of love and joy. I really wish that those reading this can benefit the way that I did from positive thinking and self-love. Honestly, it will completely change your whole life. 🙂