Slowly But Surely.
After a very difficult year of a relationship due to my negative beliefs and fear of abandonment, my partner and I had the breakup or all breakups.
After drinking a bottle of wine I texted some very, very, damaging words about my thoughts and feelings towards him and our relationship.
This had happened before, but never this bad. Immediately I was blocked from all his Social Networking sites and was told that this was it! That I needed help and that he would no longer stand for this verbal abuse.
I begged, cried and begged again. Two weeks of him telling me to find help and leave him alone. I couldn’t believe that he really had had enough.
I wasn’t eating, sleeping or concentrating, I lost 1 stone in 2 weeks and was at a very low place.
I was introduced to The Secret by my sister. I slowly started to understand exactly that I had completely asked for this and it was all my doing. I started on my gratitude lists every morning and wrote in my journal that we are ok, he will feel my change and we will do all the things we had planned.
I kept texting him, and at this stage I was being completely blanked still, so I decided to stop texting and work on myself.
Around day six I texted and asked if we could go to a gig in March, one that we would both love. To my surprise he answered “Yeah, sure”.
It’s only a small step, but this morning he actually texted and asked how work was.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I feel there may be a chance as long as I continue to be positive and stop the negative thoughts. It’s been amazing to think how terribly my thinking had been for so long, feels like the clouds have lifted.