Hello,

The Secret found me one month ago when I was struggling to cope with the break-up between my soul mate and I, and consequently the loss of my home, job and dreams. I felt that there was nothing to either hope for or look forward to and I was scared by some of the thoughts I had.

Enter The Secret, right when I needed it most. Since then I’ve read the book 3 times, watched the movie 4 times and listened to the audio book twice, not including random fragments of all before bed. Within two days I could feel enough of a change within myself to go out and buy The Secret Gratitude Book and Daily Teachings. My Gratitude Book is now one of my favourite things. I don’t know if it’s gratitude I feel when I write in it because all I can describe it as is a kind of fuzziness in my chest that makes me smile.

Since I started my Gratitude Book I have used it to manifest texts from specific people, emails from my ex, a meal cooked by someone else, and an empty bench in a bustling park. I never really focused too much on manifesting these things, mostly because I was afraid of losing my belief if I set my sights on something tangible and through my own mistake it failed to appear.

So all I did was give thanks for them in my book and they came to me within 2 or 3 days as a pleasant surprise which I *chose* to attribute to The Secret. I even ticked them off in my book which felt wonderful. But there are two other occasions I’d like to share where I am sure I called what I wanted to me.

The first came when I was sitting on that bench I mentioned. I was struggling to lift my mood and trying to think of happy things. I was noticing how many dog walkers were around and how The Secret included pets as a way to feel good. I thought it might help cheer me up if one of those dogs came up to me. Then, to make the effect even stronger, I decided I needed a puppy, not a dog. Then and there I asked for a puppy to come sniff at my feet and make me smile. This thought alone made me feel better and within literally 2 minutes it became a reality as a scruffy puppy came sniffing at my feet. Sadly it was over in a flash and I was too shocked to enjoy it properly so, still smiling after the first, I silently asked the universe for another puppy. The next one came to me after only a few seconds and not long after that the first puppy came by a second time. They were the only two puppies I saw in the park that day.

The second and most recent manifestation is like the gift that keeps on giving. I have always found yellow to be a very positive colour so I decided I wanted a yellow rose. They are not something I see around so I didn’t know how I would receive one. I couldn’t even find a magazine cutting of one for my Vision Board. Never-the-less, I wanted one, so on May 26th and again on June 3rd I wrote my thanks in my Gratitude Book. I know now that what you ask for doesn’t always come when or how you expect it to, but it does come.

My first yellow rose came to me on June 10th courtesy of a game I play on an online networking site. In the game you have your own zoo to manage and every so often there are special freebies to collect, like bumper cars or building materials for a castle. The latest freebie is a rose garden with white, red, blue and, yes, YELLOW roses to collect. The first rose I sent to myself but since then I have been finding them in my zoo almost every day. Always the yellow ones. They usually appear when I’m feeling a little sad and each time I am reminded to Be Happy.

In researching online I came across some of the doubters and naysayers but I decided there and then – What does it matter how many people choose to argue about how ‘real’ The Secret is? It’s free. You don’t even have to buy the book! The Law of Attraction cannot BE bought and all it teaches you to do is Be Happy, Be Grateful, and Think Positively. There is no harm in any of that, quite the opposite.

Over the last month I have had moments of such happiness and KNOWING. Moments where I feel so blessed and powerful, even a little smug ;o) I still have a lot of down moments too but never on the scale they were before and now I have a growing arsenal of ways to combat them. So far my Secret Shifters include refrigerated face masks, the Susan Boyle audition and Hannah Montana music (terrible but true!)

I am still nervous about employing The Secret too deliberately until I’ve learned how to visualize and control my emotions better. In asking myself what I want from life I know that chief among them is my ex boyfriend, but I also know that even The Secret won’t allow me to create his reality, only my own. Still I hope that somehow, some way, my first real rose will come from him.