Proof Of The Law Of Attraction
I am not going to go into the details of my 39 years on this planet, and all the tragedies, hardships and struggles I have faced. I don’t want to put that negativity out there, and it’s not a factor in my life anymore. Let’s just say that so far, I’ve had one heck of a ride.
Two weeks ago, something happened that brought my world crashing down yet again. I was absolutely devastated. I’d had enough, and I felt completely broken. I don’t think I’ve ever cried so hard in my entire life. I prayed that night, begging from the bottom of my heart for help of ANY kind. I kept saying to God “why is it always so hard?” and “you see that I keep getting knocked down, and I keep getting back up, but I can’t get up anymore”. The next day I was a walking zombie, and I felt absolutely dead inside. The day after that, something inside me told me to grab the copy of The Secret DVD that I’ve had in my possession for the last 2 years.
Since I bought the DVD, I’ve watched The Secret a few times, and it made a whole lot of sense to me, but did I really practice it? At times I thought I was, but life never changed, and so it was put in the basket with the rest of my DVDs, and long forgotten. The same thing goes for The Secret book that I have as well. I don’t know why, but this time when I put that DVD in, it truly hit me like a ton of bricks. I watched it over and over again for the next several days. I was, and still am, determined to make The Secret my way of living. I know many people can relate to past conditioning. Yes, I believe that everything is energy. I don’t have any problems whatsoever with that concept. Yes, I believe that our thoughts are energy.
HOWEVER, when you are conditioned to negative events and let downs all your life, the true struggle for me was releasing the fear and doubt. I suddenly became extremely aware of my thoughts and it scared me sometimes. I was too afraid to let negative thoughts enter, but at the same time, I was in fear. Those first few days were really tough. I felt like I was a drug addict going off the drugs.
I also realized my previous thoughts and actions throughout my life were truly the result of my current situation. Even with that knowledge, my big questions still were “how come negative things come so quickly, and positive things don’t?”. “How come even now, practicing The Secret, the little doubts that have crept into my mind HAVE happened and the money that I’ve been visualizing HAS NOT? If the Universe has no concept of size, then it’s not the magnitude of my request, is it?”
I’ve been going back and forth between doubt and faith, doubt and faith. As I said, I’ve been conditioned to a certain way of thinking, but I can honestly say my faith increases with every passing day. I started a gratitude journal, and I can’t believe how many wonderful things I have in my life for which I am grateful. Why didn’t I thank the Universe for those wonderful things before? For the past few days, I’ve expressed my gratitude for every good thing that has happened, no matter how small, and I truly feel the waves of energy all over my body when I express my SINCERE gratitude.
I realize my story is long, but I wanted to give a bit of background on my mindset and the event that prompted me to write this. I have my own business and we recently moved to a new facility. For the past few days, I’ve been telling my assistant that we should get a flat screen TV in the office. The warehouse portion of our building is busy; however, the front end is the office area. It is a rather large space, and it’s just me and my assistant in that area, so it can be awfully quiet at times. I thought it would be nice for employees to have a TV to watch on their lunch break, or have it to play soft music in the background. I really didn’t want to spend $800 on the flat screen TV I wanted, but I knew that I’d end up getting it in the near future. For the past few days, each time I walked between the office and the warehouse, I’d envision the TV and where I’d put it. Should I place it in the boardroom for audio presentations? Should I put it in the reception area for visitors? I’ve been mentally placing this TV all over the office, trying to find the best place for it, yet I didn’t have any idea of when I’d be buying it.
Also, every morning for the past week, I’ve been watching an episode of the Oprah Winfrey show with guests from The Secret. I have this tiny laptop in my bedroom which doesn’t play DVDs, so while I put on my makeup, I play that episode on YouTube. I thought it was a great way to start my day, and anything that kept drilling The Secret into my head was definitely worthwhile. After watching The Secret on Oprah today, I thanked the Universe for directing me to The Secret, and I expressed my gratitude for all the people in the world that share this information with others. Today, I was thinking what I shame it is that Oprah doesn’t have her show on air anymore. It got me to thinking that I should subscribe to the Oprah Winfrey Network, because I love her and she’s such an inspiration.
Tonight when I got home from work, the doorbell rang. It was a sales representative from one of our city’s major communications companies. He told me that if I made them my cable and internet service provider, they’d give me a flat screen Samsung TV. The exact TV I wanted to buy! He also said that they’d give me the same service, same channels as my current provider, but for a better price and they’d also include an additional “paid” channel, and the Oprah Winfrey Network was one of the options!
In this time when I was questioning some things, I received validation. I don’t believe in coincidences. If someone told me that a flat screen TV was a few days away from being reality, due to practicing The Secret, I wouldn’t have believed it. Plus, I didn’t realize that I was doing it at the time. It was all subconscious. It’s because I was intending the TV, and I was acting as if I’d already had it because I was mentally placing it in the office. Getting the Oprah Winfrey Network was another sign. I’ve been watching that show over and over all week, and it’s true. What you focus your attention on does make it’s way back to you. It was all effortless. It’s when you struggle with your thoughts that slows you down. It’s like being in quicksand, the more you struggle in it, the further you sink.
It’s said in The Secret that if you want to test it, you should try to start off with something small. This was it, and it was shown to me. I’m so excited for the next request because now I know how to work with it.
If my story provided a bit of inspiration and hope to those that are in that stage of doubt, then I’ve helped someone, and I’m grateful for that!