When I was all but 13, I had a profound epiphany come to me. What happens when we die?
I realized that I did not know what happens after death, and where and/or what I was before this life. It frightened me to my core. I was severely depressed for months actual, years even. I was able to kind of ignore the fear of death by dissociation, and I became numb. For as long as I can recall, anxiety was present in my day to day life. It only got worse as I grew older. I depended on material possession and relationships for happiness, both of which I struggled with due to my mental health. I hated myself and genuinely believed I was the ugliest, most annoying, and ungrateful person in the whole world. I despised almost everything about myself. I wanted so badly to be someone who was kind and funny with everyone. Every day waking up and getting out of bed was a struggle, mentally and emotionally. Ok, so you get the picture.
Then when I was 16, on just a random day on a random weekend, I had a good friend come over. We were sitting there watching a movie, and I had another profound epiphany. This moment will only ever exist now, so I might as well live fully and enjoy it.
And just like that, all my anxieties and worries just melted away for a few mere moments. I was living purely and wholly in the present moment. That was my turning point. I ended up losing my friend a few weeks later. It was difficult given my co-dependency but there was something different this time around. It was almost like a spark had been lit within me.
A few months later my sister showed me The Secret movie on Netflix. It was then that I knew I had to take a leap of faith. I had to live my life as I did those few special moments.
It has been a year now since I first watched The Secret. I have read other self-help and self-realization books including The Greatest Secret, and I have tried different techniques such as mediation, yoga, and breathing exercises used for awakening us to our true nature, which is essentially happiness and pure bliss. All of them have helped me!
I come to you today to share that I have had yet another wonderful realization today: We are that which we want. I am that I am.
We are that feeling, that essence of having all needs met, and anything we could possibly ever want and/or dream of. We do not need things to happen for us to be happy, rather we are that happiness that is being brought up within us. We can embody this high vibrational self anytime we want. All we have to do is live now, in the present moment. By doing this, we are saying, “Yes, I have anything and everything I could ever want. So all I have yet to do is to live it and enjoy it.” All we have to do is breathe. Just be. It’s when you start living from this perspective that all those things that ‘brought you happiness’ will automatically manifest because you share the same vibration. This is the bigger picture. Be here now because now is all you are ever going to get. That in itself is wonderfully divine, just like you are!