I was not able to find peace in my life for a very long time.
I used every outlet possible. Liquor, men and other things for an outlet. But I could not get rid of the pain and emptiness one person in my life was causing. I lived in this self made jail for 7 yrs. I blamed the individual for the abuse, lies and everything else he did to me. All the financial burden, he caused everything but I never looked deep inside and said you are allowing the behavior.
The day I realized only I could change my destiny and look for peace within, my life began to change.
It took me exactly a year to get to where I am now, but I did it with that person in front of me. I learned to love myself and accept myself. I learned to not take everything personal. I learned to love the simplest things like being home and cooking and watching a movie. I began to grow again. Loving yourself makes such a change and brings peace. When you don’t battle the enemy and just let them win does not mean you are a failure, it just means that battle is over for you.
I love myself and took many years to get here but am grateful