My first encounter with The Secret was when I was 20 years old. I had early symptoms depression at that time. Most of the times I would spend my day reading books. One day, my little sister borrowed The Secret from her school library and gave it to me. I read a few pages and ignored it. After a few days, my sister returned it and it was gone.
After a few months, in an effort to help me, my mum sent me to visit my grandparents. But my sadness grew more. In the eyes of others, I was a very lucky girl: beautiful, smart and with a good family. In my eyes, I was a jobless college graduate, full of self-hatred. Nobody could get through to me. I spent the entire period crying and crying everyday.
After 6 months, I came back to Manila and the same thing re-ocurred. After some time, having hit my most bottom, I asked my mum to take me to a professional. She gave me some medicine. It helped. I applied for a job and got in.
Sometime during that, I met a friend who was very avid about The Secret. I remember she read to me once an excerpt from the “health” chapter. It felt very good and it gave me hope.
I borrowed the book from her and would read it all the time, everywhere: at work during break, going to work on the shuttle; at home before going to bed. I would encourage all my friends to read it. Sometimes even complete strangers.
Surprisingly, nothing really came up. I remember asking for a lot of things, but they never manifested. I put it to the side.
My happiness level was also lagging behind. I would still easily slip into unhappiness every now then.
A few months back, I was chatting with one of my seniours in the office. She is very compassionate and I always would look up to her. She is one of those women who can make anything work. I admire the way she stands up, very confident and bubbly. I would say she is the opposite of me literally and well, emotionally.
I told her about The Secret. Though she hasn’t read, as I explained to her the contents of the book,she said “Yes, It’s true”. But the key is to be happy and to believe.
She asked me to write in bullet the things that made me happy. I did. And I also wrote down what I wanted. I wanted it to be small and something believable so I said “I want a Papaya”.
Over the next couple of months, I started practicing what I read. I stopped thinking of the outcome. I just believed that I am capable and worthy. I prayed as well for guidance. I was surprised to experience so much happiness from small small things like for example, buying a new dress or maskara or being able come to work on time.
Also, I joined gym and worked out 4 to 5 times a week. Its great for boosting seratonin.
A week ago, my house was caught in fire. The entire 2nd level was burned. All we had left was a fridge, a sofa and a table with dishes and untensils. All my clothes, shoes everything else was poof.
Despite this I never cried. I never felt hopeless like I did usually. The first thing that I remember saying, “Thank God, nobody was harmed.” I live with my parents and 2 young siblings. Second thing, “Thank God, at least we saved the fridge, sofa and table ” Third thing, “Yehey, we are shopping!”.
We couldn’t cook for almost 3 days, as the roof on the 1st level was falling out. So, my aunty and a few family friends brought us some food. And one day, unexpectedly, my papaya came!
Message: Never quit…believe, be patient and be happy because you will undoubtedly receive!