Now I get it
Last week, I wrote how my boyfriend in Germany broke up with me over the phone. I said I was filling up with love, and hoping he would return. This story wasn’t shared, but it also did not truly reflect The Secret.
As you can imagine, I have spent all this time thinking about what happened. I will admit I had disappointment and tears. Thanks to The Secret and The Power, I have made some strong choices.
Each morning (and sometimes throughout the day), I have fired off a litany of things for which I am thankful. Also, I sent an email to my close friends, asking them to send me (and Jeff) love and prayer. Unlike past break-ups, I am not going to be a victim. Ultimately, I am surrounding myself with love. Sometimes I even get almost giddy believing how much love I am receiving from God and the universe. I am more regularly reading The Secret stories, and sending love out to you, The Secret staff, strangers I encounter, and anyone I can think of.
Most importantly, I understand what happened. You see, we never got to the part about opening our hearts. I thought I was trying to do just that, but realize that I was really not showing love. I recently sent him a poem I wrote (I think this may be what started his questions about our relationship) where I “Heard you say I love you”. I sent it via email, not expecting a response, which didn’t come. In hindsight, I did not send the email with love, but with desperation and doubt.
Now comes the other part, he was not ready to open his heart. All my attempts to change his mind would be a waste of energy. Knowing this, I can honestly say that I have to let him go! I have to give him his freedom, as hard as that may be for me.
This journey is still tender for me. I am so grateful for all the tools I have learned from reading The Secret. I am so grateful to share this story. I am so grateful for all the love I am receiving. God bless you all!