Nothing Needs To Be Fixed, Healing My Gut!
A while back I was very focused on food and my health. I was struggling with an eating-disorder and all I wanted was to feel truly healthy and good. I would eat in a million different ways, fear certain foods, eat different diets and be very strict with my sleep and exercise. I did all of these actions out of fear. Fear controlled me.
When I then read about how bad gluten and dairy was, I stopped eating that as well. At this time my stomach was very sensitive and it would bloat up and hurt from certain foods. Cutting out gluten helped. I did it for 2.5 years before I decided I didn’t want to live like this anymore. I was tired of being afraid and I was tired of this restricted way of living. I wanted to feel free and healthy again.
At this point cutting out gluten made me feel better but my stomach just got more and more sensitive and at one point I remember barely being able to eat any types of food. I remember lying in bed so bloated and in pain after dinner that I had to roll out of bed and walk a bit leaned forward to not feel so uncomfortable.
I then realized how I had created all of this through the LOA. I read about certain foods being bad for me and they became bad for me. I was constantly looking at what was wrong and needed to be fixed, as I was not feeling my best, and feeling my best was always my biggest goal. I realized that it was not the food that was creating my discomfort, it was me allowing the food to make me feel fearful giving me low vibrational feelings and that made my stomach feel very bad.
After realizing it was not about the food and that it was me who had created this sensitive gut, I started working my way through my thoughts and beliefs and I became very aware of what I believed about the food I ate.
Since I had experimented and read so many contradicting things about food, I first felt very confused and often felt like no action felt truly good to me. There is so much information about food and certain diets out there and after all of my experimenting and researching, I now believe the reason those diets work is mostly because the people who eat in that way really believe in what they are doing and they expect good results from their actions.
It was only when I let go of all thoughts about “good” and “bad” foods and just started eating as I was able to eat all kinds of food without any stomach pain! This is life changing for me as I for many months could hardly eat anything without feeling a lot of discomfort from what I ate.
I now eat gluten almost daily! I have been really enjoying eating all of the foods I used to love when I was younger. I can now eat all kinds of foods and my stomach feels fine!
What I felt worked best for me was to let go of my constant strive to “fix the problem”, as I first did when I was trying to journal my way through all of my beliefs about food. It was good for me to become aware of many of those beliefs, as I could easily let go of them then. But being in the mindset of “finding and fixing the problem” just kept me stuck with constantly having a problem to overcome.
I started doing and focusing on eating what felt good in the moment and gently shifting my focusing on the fact that it was not about the food. It was about what I believed, and allowed myself to feel about the food, that helped me get to where I am now.
In the beginning I sometimes felt discomfort after eating certain foods. It really helped not looking at it so seriously. I just observed the symptoms and then I let it go and focused on feeling good. I knew the discomfort was manifestations of the past and I accepted that I was on a journey. I knew I would get to where I wanted to be with a bit of practice. It was like I was meditating. I ate something, felt the discomfort but did not get attached to it. I just observed it and then I let it go. This is how I deal with thoughts that come up when I meditate as well. I simply observe them and let them pass.
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