Never Lose Faith
After my last divorce I found myself living with my mother. I had no car, no job and no prospects of anything. We lived in a small town in Ohio. I had reconnected with a friend in Washington State and really wanted to move there, but I saw no way.
One day, my mom and I were at a yard sale when I was searching through a table of books. I found the book The Secret. It was brand new. My mom purchased the book and I read the entire book in one day. It made sense to me and it gave me hope.
I decided if I was going to move to Washington I had to start making plans. Now, I didn’t know how I was going or where I was going to get the money, but I knew I was going. I packed all my things. I put some things in storage at a relatives house and packed my clothes in suitcases. I would go online and see pictures of Washington, the lake and the places to see there and I would imagine being there.
Finally, 2 months later while searching through a box for a photo, I found my old divorce decree from my first husband. I was awarded 1/2 his pension when he retired. Although that was 15 years away, I had a thought. I called him and asked if he would give me a 1/4 of the money now, I would sign a paper saying I was paid in full. My thought was I needed it now not in 15 yrs. He agreed and within a week, I had bought a car and was on my way to Washington State.
Shortly, after arriving my friend moved to California, but I had fallen in love with the area and decided to stay. But after she left I started feeling alone and scared. I didn’t know anyone and the rainy weather was causing me to feel depressed. I was constantly sad and felt worried. I didn’t have the money to move back to Ohio, nor did I want to. The worry and sadness took over, I lost my job and apartment. My thoughts became my reality.
I was living in my car with basically nothing. My mom, on a fixed income would send me money for gas and food. I lived this way for over a month. When I realized I had downloaded the movie The Secret to my iPad I started laying in my car at night watching it. I made a vision board at the library and every day I would imagine having those things. I started taking long walks through the parks imagining I was walking with the man of my dreams in a foreign country. Each night when I laid down in the back of my SUV I imagined I was in our master suite.
It was hard. Sometimes the worry and insecurities would take over, but for the most part I kept the Faith. I just knew eventually everything I wanted would happen.
After living in my car for 1 month, I was down to $20. I took that money and bought 2 Powerball tickets with the Power play. I won $2 million dollars. I invested in a company. Now, I’m engaged to the owner of the company and I just completed my first novel which will be published in June.
There will be days when it’s hard, but you have to shake it off and have the faith. Every time I caught myself feeling sad I would imagine a Hawaiian day. I still read The Secret everyday. I still watch the movie every couple of weeks. I never want to forget The Secret and what it has done for me.