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My Magical Body And Eating Disorder Recovery.
Submitted by: Eternally grateful
Los Angeles, CAA firm believer of the LOA.
I really want to thank Rhonda for sharing The Secret with the world and all of you wonderful people because your stories are always a great inspiration. I have read The Secret, The Magic, and The Power. The Magic is something I will continue doing for the rest of my life.
There are many things I have manifested and I want to manifest but this story is about one of the greatest things I have been able to attract back into my life, my health. I promised myself that when I got better, I would share this with the hope it may help someone else one day.
I had been struggling with an eating disorder for almost 2 years and I was very thin and undernourished. I desperately wanted to get better as I knew I was killing myself slowly but surely. It was really hard though, I had a very distorted relationship with food and my body.
I have been blessed with beauty and I am very grateful for that. I also loved being as thin as I was. People would always compliment me on how amazing I looked and that I looked like a top model but I also felt the pressure of staying thin and beautiful. I was scared of food, I was scared of eating and when I did, I felt the urgency to get rid of it immediately. I was always very positive in general about life but deep down, this was something that made me extremely miserable and weighed me down. I knew I was the one hurting myself and hated myself for it.
My family and my wonderful friends intervened and tried to help me but I wasn’t ready to get better, I was still very scared. This continued for a year until I suddenly had an epiphany and I made a decision to change my life and allow myself to have everything I want. My first decision was to be healthy and still have my ideal body.
It’s been a journey but thanks to the LOA, not a long one. From one day to the next, I gained 20 lbs of water. Once you start feeding your body again properly, the body freaks out and starts retaining water. I initially freaked out but I powered through and trusted it was water and not fat. This was really scary and physically uncomfortable, none of my clothes fit and I was extremely bloated every minute of the day, but I still believed I could have anything I wanted.
I said to myself every night my body was getting rid of the water. I would write in my journal how thankful I was for a fast metabolism and my perfect, ideal, healthy, and magical body. Every single day, I told myself how much I loved myself and the reasons why I loved myself so much. My habits rapidly changed. I suddenly began eating extremely well and feeding my body food that was good for it and this was not a struggle, I really enjoyed it and my body was asking for it. I exercised 5 times a week but not as a chore, I had the energy and I really enjoyed it.
I started to think less and less about it. Letting go was not easy but it was key. One thing I did was avoid mirrors, not because I was afraid to look at myself, I just didn’t want to think about it. I just felt in my heart I was perfect, just the way I was. Again, from one day to the next, my body got rid of a lot of the excess water.
Right after I got rid of the excess water, my clothes started fitting again and even better than before. The shape of my body was more defined. I found the courage to get on the scale but to my surprise, I was still 16 lbs above the weight I was before my recovery but my size zero clothes fit perfectly. It made no sense to me then. During my doctor’s appointment, I had a scan and indeed, I was 16 lbs heavier. I was at a healthy weight for my height as I am 5 ft 9 but my body fat was 15.4% which is the body fat of an athlete.
This was a miracle! A few weeks ago I was 117 lbs and undernourished, with low vitamin levels and I now have my esthetic ideal body at a perfect and healthy weight. The scan showed I have an extremely fast metabolism which is also a miracle given the fact that my body had not been fed properly for years. I am now perfectly healthy, I have no fear of food, I have no fear of the feeling of being full and I now love food! I love my body and I love myself. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
Never give up, don’t stop believing. You can have anything you want. Trust. Love yourself unconditionally. You will have it all.