My Hands Are Shaking, Shocked!
Hi everyone !!!
First of all , sorry for my poor English but I am from Italy 🙂
My story begins, I think, when I was ten or eleven. I have always been very tall like my dad, and also very pretty, but I didn’t think about this thing a lot. When I was eleven , my body started slowly to change and I was becoming absolutely stunning.
But there was a problem, I didn’t want to be that way. I know you can think it is a strange thing, because everyone wants to be beautiful, but let me explain to you what I was living.
I have always been very shy, and I get hurt a lot of times. In those years, I started to have panic attacks and I had to do things in a certain way when I had attacks. I discovered when I was 17 that I had Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. I hurt myself for so many years and I didn’t realize that.
But in those years some if my classmates started to laugh at me. I got bullied a lot, and I had thoughts that were killing myself. In that period, I knew in my heart that I was going to be beautiful. I don’t know why but I knew it and I just thought “I can’t let my beauty come out, it is wrong”.
I fought with this thought a little bit, then I said to myself “Now I hide my beauty, I am not ready for that”. And I did. I didn’t know The Secret but I hid my beauty.
The time passed, and I didn’t like myself much, but a thought was always in my heart that was “stop hiding it, don’t do that, it is a huge gift from god and it is rare”.
When I was 18 I started to see me as fat, but I wasn’t at all. I was scared of being fat and ugly.
Then I discovered The Secret, and I didn’t believe in that because I though it was too much easy and wonderful to be true. But I decided to give it a try, and I chose a thing that was huge and very important for me. I wanted to show off my beauty that I had hidden for so much time.
I found a photo of a stunning girl, and I felt that the real me was exactly like her.
I started to tell myself that I had nothing to lose, that I had to give it a try and I had nothing to lose. I started to feel so good, so happy for my beauty, and I said “thank you god for my beauty, forgive me if I have hidden it for so much time”.
I did it for I think two days, and in these days a lot of people stared at me. I went to bed and in the morning I forgot about it. I looked at myself in the mirror and I saw the girl in the photo. But I was so convinced that I was like her that I didn’t realize that. Suddenly I stopped and I looked at myself.
Well, I was absolutely breathless. I started to cry for joy, because that was the real me, I would have never be ashamed of my beauty.
I went to school and the guy I liked for two years that had never talked to me said “Hi” and came over to with me. He asked for my number and two minutes later he texted me saying “I have to tell you that you are absolutely gorgeous, I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw you, I have never seen a girl as beautiful as you”.
I am so happy now, because this is me. I received a huge gift, so rare, but I don’t wanna hide it anymore.
Thank you god for my beauty, thank you for The Secret for helping me, thank you everyone.