My Goal Realized, With A Little Push
For almost 4 years now, since the birth of my second child, I’ve wanted nothing more than to be a stay at home mommy. I missed a lot of my oldest child’s “firsts” because of my job. We work long hours and often times more than 5 days a week, but at the time I believed it was the only way to provide for her (even though I was missing her childhood).
When my son was born 9 years later, I was so sad because I was at the same job, with the same demanding hours, and I was afraid that I would miss him growing up as well. That’s when I made it my goal to be a stay at home mommy. I have my vision board posted on an online mailer; one that sends inspiring emails (much like The Secret). I’d lost focus on my goal, getting caught up in the daily routine of working.
Well, I’ve recently given birth to a third child, another little boy. I had 12 weeks off this summer with my kids, the last 9 with my newborn included. I realized that I wanted more than anything to be a stay at home mommy. I am SO grateful for these last 12 weeks, and I want to continue to be home and available for my children.
I made it my intention about 10 weeks ago that I am going to be a stay at home mommy. My faith wavered a bit, until I opened up my email 2 weeks ago and saw at the bottom a little message that reminded me of my goal so long ago; to be able to stay at home with my children.
I was so excited to see that! I had forgotten that I had made it my goal so long ago. So I have been trying to find ways to make it happen; ah yes, my downfall. I am always hung up on the “how” and not focusing on the result. I have been pushing my goal away from me, because worrying about how it’s going to happen expresses doubt that it will happen.
So, yesterday I was at the mall with my kiddos. I am due to start back to work on October 13, so I was looking to see if I could find some clothes to wear, as I’m a different size now than before I had gotten pregnant. I went into 4 of my favorite stores where I have gotten all of my clothes in the past. I was completely shocked to find that they didn’t carry the style of work pants that I needed. All they had was denim, or any kind of pants that are NOT in the work dress code. I was getting a little deterred by the time I left the 3rd store, and that’s when I realized; I’m not finding these clothes because I’m not going back to work! The Universe was telling me not to bother buying these clothes, as I am NOT going to need them! It hit me in the 4th store, and I just pushed the stroller around the displays and wore a big goofy grin as I did so. My heart swelled with love and appreciation at the realization that my dream is about to come true!
So, thank you, thank you, thank you to The Universe for listening. I asked, I believed, and when I lost focus, The Universe was there to redirect me. I am so looking forward to receiving my dream. I am thinking about the look on my supervisors face when I go in this week to tell him that I won’t be coming back. I am planning on thanking so many people at work, and my dear spiritual friend who has guided me so many times (thank you, dear Reggie). And I can’t wait to tell my older kids that I will actually be home for Thanksgiving and Christmas, instead of working!
I hope that this helps those looking for inspiration. Stay focused on your goal, and pay attention to the little signs that redirect you and keep you focused.
Thank you, Universe. I love you!