I watched The Secret and was so high on joy and excitement that I knew in my elated state of mind it was the best time to ask for something. I closed my eyes and with all my heart and sincerity, I asked for a sign from my Higher Self to show me that she (he, it, or whomever) was really, truly there and with me, aware of my deepest desires. I asked that this sign come to me while I was asleep since I figured my conscious mind would be least likely to interfere. I realized that I needed to choose a symbol of some sort and decided a butterfly would do best since I hadnt seen one in a while. I said thank you, again with all my heart, and went about my day happier and much more hopeful than I had been in a long, long while.
About 30 minutes later, as I was going through my e-mail, deleting all the junk, I came upon one from a sender I trusted but had been throwing out unread for the past several months. This time I decided to open it and there at the top was a big beautiful blue butterfly! Never mind the message from the sender, all I could do was laugh! I mean, I asked for it and I got it but a lot sooner than I had asked! I didnt have to wait for bedtime.
That was about 4 weeks ago. Since then, I have only watched The Secret once more and I know I need to watch it at least once a week because I slip into negativity so easily these days. Well, a few days ago, while beating myself up about not having a fulfilling career, I realized that again, I could ask my Higher Self, and/or The Universe for help. I asked (begged, really) for help deciding what direction to go into, where I could use my given talents and abilities for the best, even if it meant going way outside of my comfort zone or having to get special training. If I got this help from my Higher Self and/or The Universe, then Id KNOW it was the right choice. Again, I asked for a butterfly to accompany the career choice.
That was about 3 days ago. By this morning when I woke up, I was back in my negativity and thinking that I was not going to be told what to do since we basically have free will to do what we want and that it was up to me and me alone to decide what to do with my life (picture the image of God as an old man with a long beard and a white robe shaking his finger at me and youll understand how I felt). I came into work bitter and sad as usual, before coffee, and I wasnt here for 45 minutes when a co-worker began showing me several books she bought for her children when they were younger. Now let me backtrack another few days ago: I had impulsively signed up for an online course called Writing for Children through a community college. I already had a book on the subject but had since put it away after talking myself out of that notion. The idea of being a childrens author excited me and made me happy, but my negativity beat me back down to reality. Even though I signed up for the course, I was doubtful of my decision. Now, back to this morning as my co-worker is showing me all these books. Since I have a young son, she is letting me pick out the books I want to read to him and she is unaware of my interest in becoming a childrens author. She shows me the last one about a caterpillar. She is flipping through and opens it up to the last page and there is this big beautiful butterfly! Yes, the odds of seeing a butterfly in a childrens book are quite high, but in this particular moment, all I could think was, Well, theres your butterfly. Its what you asked for. Do you accept this career choice? YES, INDEED I DO!!
Thank you, Universe, and thank you to all those involved in bringing The Secret to the masses!