Miracle Or Not?
In April 2015 I was given a cancer diagnosis and, as you might imagine, it changed me. But, I was one of the few lucky ones because today I don’t have cancer.
I had had a chest infection that wouldn’t clear up so my GP sent me for an x-ray, the result of which didn’t look good to the medical people. My GP pulled me in that day and gave me the news that there could be something seriously wrong and told me the worst case scenario. To say I was devastated would be an understatement. Within a few days, I was at the hospital going through all these “scary” tests that I’d only heard about from other people before. At this point, I was still going to work and only my immediate family knew what was going on.
After my CT scan, my wife and I were taken into an office with a doctor and a female who was introduced to me as a nurse. Now, at that point, I knew I was screwed! Being introduced to a nurse in “plain clothes” is never a good sign in that environment! Towards the end of the appointment, I was told that this woman was to be my cancer support nurse. That was when it really hit me. A cancer support nurse and I had just been given one.
I was given a physical examination and was shown a monitor. The doctor pointed out a tumour which consisted of a mass and nodules in my lower left lung. She then outlined a plan to discover what type of cancer and how aggressive it was and that would take further scans over the next few weeks.
At the end of the appointment my wife had to go outside – for a cigarette!!!! I sat and waited outside a room where a nurse was coming to link me up to some machine to monitor my breathing. It was as I was sitting there that it suddenly dawned on me what was happening. I thought of my wife outside. I thought of my children. I thought of my grandchildren then thought “Fuck it!.” I wish I could say that I said something more spiritual but I didn’t! It is what it is and decided to get on with it.
I remained positive throughout and I was feeling very positive about something so serious, which didn’t make a lot of sense to me at the time. At my biopsy CT scan, I was supported throughout by a lovely nurse who told me what was going to happen throughout the operation. I did what was asked of me and after being run through that big machine a few times the doctor in charge came to me and told me that they were abandoning the biopsy.
As I looked at him, obviously puzzled, he said, “There’s nothing there.” I must have looked shocked and he asked if I was okay. I said, “I’m stunned.” He replied, “You’re stunned??!! They were as stunned as I was!!
I left to get changed back into my clothes, still supported by the nurse who had been with me, and for the first time throughout the whole experience, which took 5 to 6 weeks, I cried. Her next statement was, “I’ve just seen a miracle.” We then had a chat about her job and how there is such negativity around it but she said that now and again something happens like today.
I went off for a short break with my wife to Newcastle a few weeks later where I received a call from the doctor who was leading my team. She actually apologised but said that where cancer is involved they have to act aggressively. I told her there was no need for apologies and I would hope to be treated the same way if it happened again. Unfortunately, she couldn’t tell me that there was a scientific explanation.
So what happened? I remained positive. I gave myself reiki-I’m a reiki master. I used my mind in the way that I use it with spirit and carried out spiritual exercises. People who knew me were praying for me, others were asking for help from their spirit guides while others were just sending positive thoughts. The power of thought and the human mind are quite something for those of us who are not single-minded!
So, miracle or not? I think miracles have something to do with the Catholic Church of which I’m not a member. In fact, I’m not even religious. Even now. But I am quite a spiritual person.
Only a few weeks ago I was giving reiki to a friend who has breast cancer and afterwards she asked if I had ever read “The Secret?” I hadn’t and before I left she lent me her copy. I came home and forgot all about it. After a few days, I picked it up and started reading. I couldn’t put it down! What I was reading had actually happened to me! Within weeks I went from having lung cancer to not having any trace of it in my body without medical treatment. I believe it was the combination of my daily visualisations, reiki, along with thoughts and prayers from family and friends that helped remove that tumour.
I could repeat many similar stories such as one time I was offered a very good job but needed a car. I didn’t have one or the means to buy one. Within a few days, I took a call from a friend who said she was getting rid of her car and wanted it to go to a good home! I still have it three years later.
So reading the book and watching the programme on Netflix left me quite blown away! I decided to buy my own copy of the book and to dip into on a daily basis.
Thank you for reading and blessings to all.