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Love Of My Life!
Submitted by: Hanna L.
Las Vegas, NVJust someone who lives my abundant life to the fullest.
I am lucky. Lucky to be strong enough to go through life’s challenges with people who love and support me. Lucky to have my daughter at an early age and have her teach me that even at your lowest, a light always shines through that will guide you to exactly where you should be.
And that’s where my story starts. I had my daughter when I was 18, with someone who was not ready to be a father at our young age. Though we ended our romantic relationship before I found out I was pregnant, I had hoped that he would still be around for our child. It was not the case. For a long time, I harbored anger and had always said that he cannot be a part of her life because he was not there from the start. He even had relationships with other women who purposely kept him away from his daughter because they thought that would mean that he and I would somehow re-kindle our past. So instead of trying to prove to anyone what I and my daughter were worth, I pushed my anger down and focused on being the best mother I could be, with the help of my wonderful family.
My daughter grew up feeling loved, respected, and well-cared for, enough that she did not once ask about her father. I must admit though, that while that made me feel great, I still felt a missing piece. I felt that I was worthy of love, respect, and care for myself. I did not make that a priority and I thought that I was ok being by myself. But as time went on, I realized that to fully show my daughter that she is worthy of all the love the Universe gives, I must stop denying myself of love. I should stop saying that I am ok being alone. I had to show her that even though I had some struggles in the past, I still deserved love, respect, and care. During this time, my sister gave me The Secret book to read and mentioned that it may help with making myself feel better, and to look at life from a better point of view.
So a moment came when I was listening to music by an artist named India Arie, singing a song called, Ready For Love. I must have heard this song over 50 times at this point but that one particular night, I sat up on my couch and declared to the Universe that I was ready! I am ready for love! And as I listened to the song again, I felt every lyric as she sang and I then repeated it into the Universe! I felt the feeling of excitement about this love that was coming to me. I felt joy as I kept repeating the words “I am ready for love” because I knew that in fact, I was ready. I was ready to accept. I was ready to be loved. I had to let go of all the negative thoughts I had about my ability to be loved. I let go of the anger that I was keeping inside and wished those who had hurt me, a good life. I knew that I have to accept that what happened in my past, will not dictate the kind of future I can have. I was ready.
Life went on and I just kept ‘being ready’. I kept practicing The Secret teachings as best I could. And wouldn’t you know it, my daughter’s father reached out to me. We had not spoken to each other for over 12 years and yet here he was. He was going through a divorce. He apologized for being an absent father and wanted to be there for our daughter now. As I said, it was never about him and me, so I accepted his apology and let him into her life. Little did I know, it wasn’t just her life that I was accepting him in.
As we caught up on what happened in our past, a realization came about. We realized that there were people that kept us apart along with other elements, some beyond our control and some that needed to happen as we were apart. Time went on and we got closer again. We said our truths to each other and realized what was still there, love. I said to the Universe that I was ready for love and he came back. Without all the vices that he couldn’t let go of before, but with all the love, admiration, and respect for what I was then.
Soon enough, we let go of our feelings of negativity and accepted the reality of our present. We were ready to be in each other’s lives again. This time more mature and more honest. We knew that in the past, we were too young to be strong for each other. But now, we were ready for our love. Though it’s not always sunshine and rainbows, I’m happy to say that 7 years later, we are stronger than ever. We put love and truth at the forefront of our relationship and we grow stronger together.
Our daughter is 19 now and she makes us proud beyond words for all that she has accomplished thus far. And I feel proud myself, for allowing love to come to me. Regardless of its form. I once told myself that this person would never be in my life again, but here we are now, planning our wedding for next year. I’m positive that our love is true and not a day goes by that we don’t remind each other of how lucky we are to be together again. I give thanks to the Universe for sending me love when I was ready to accept. I am grateful for the challenges that made me stronger. I continue to accept the abundant and happy life that the Universe provides. I’m happy to share my story now to let anyone know, never lose hope. Continue to live in love and love will surely continue to flow to you.
I’m so thankful to my sister for giving me The Secret book. I don’t know how much better my life would have been without its help. I am thankful, I am grateful, I am lucky!