About 2 years ago I was going through a tough time in my life where I wasn’t happy in my job. My grandad was unwell in a different country and was going through a heartbreak. I decided to quit and go and stay closer to my grandad. I didn’t have much money and I had debts to pay but I couldn’t live with that feeling anymore. I quit and I went.
I had my own flat and thought I’d stay for a month. I was battling with myself some days and I kept on pushing myself to feel good. I thought, OK, I am going to let go of this heartbreak and write a list of all the good things about my exes and some things that I would like my future man to have. Something was telling me to go on these dating apps. I did get to know a few men but they just didn’t click, then one night I met this guy who I met up with and still didn’t click for me. I said to myself at that point, “What am I doing?” But we spent the night together talking and watching a cartoon. Then the next day all I was thinking about was seeing him again and I was so excited to see him again. I felt like our energies connected to each other like magnets ever since.
We had a long distance relationship for almost 2 years. It was always going well through those 2 years. Then one day he said he didn’t want to be in a relationship and I was heartbroken. I decided to get to where he was and see him and he said he wanted to start his own career. He wanted to take this route on his own and all I could do was accept this as I can’t force someone to be in a relationship with me. After our chat, he still bit on and off for a few weeks and said he still wanted me in his life. But I could not take that feeling of up and down, fear and doubt, so I said I think you need to go find yourself and I need to go and find myself and we parted ways.
It’s been 2 months since then and it’s been the toughest breakup of my life so far. However, I can feel myself improving every day and this situation has pushed me to follow my dreams too. Right now I have moved to another country, I live on my own and am in the process of starting my own business. In these last 2 months, I have been doing whatever I can to manifest him back. I am being grateful, I pray, I visualize, and do whatever else I can think of.
The most difficult part that I am currently struggling with is letting it go. This morning I woke up with a feeling that I love him so much but at the same time I am happy to let him go. And I wish and pray that he finds his happiness, whatever that may be. I am not going to lie, deep down I still want him in my life more than anything but then I am also tired or feeling like this. I know our love is so strong and he will come back once he is happy within himself. I wanted to write this here and then write my next story once he is back in my life. Please send me love and keep me in your prayers.
Thank you for The Secret which gives me hope, gives me that happy inner feeling, and allows me to understand that inner gut feeling. Thank you and I’ll be back with part 2 very soon to let you know how we are back together even though we have both changed for good, and our relationship is more amazing than ever before.