I have spent the better part of the past 20 years getting over my addictions and rebuilding my life.
I have come to an impasse after reading The Power. I read about the power of love and gratitude and couldn’t figure out why nothing I wanted was manifesting and also why I always had this tension in my stomach.
I have used The Secret in getting answers for things I didn’t know. For instance, if I wanted to know what a fear was, I would ask for answers and they always came. My greatest fear, which I did not not realize until today, was love.
At a young age, because of the way my life was, I totally shut off my emotions. I remember in my mid 30’s going to a healer and she said that my whole brain was covered in black ice, she did what she did in a healing and broke it all up. Now this isn’t the nicest part, but all my bowel movements were black for about 2 weeks. Then they returned to normal. I was addicted to alcohol, and prescription drugs and one day, I stopped it all. Just had a thought and never wanted any of it again.
I did however, still have this tension in my stomach. It took over 20 years for me to figure out what the fear was, and it wasn’t that I wasn’t getting any clues, I just wasn’t reading the answers correctly. Who in their right mind would be afraid of love? Well I was and didn’t realize it until after reading The Power about three times in a row.
Now, I know.
Now I know why nothing was manifesting. I love money but was repelling it because I was afraid of love. If I thought about loving my family, I would get this tension and other things. I could not bring love to me, close to me, because of the fear of love.
The bottom line of it was that when I was growing up, everything I loved was taken away from me so I stopped feeling it. Now, when I think about it, I have to sit with it for a while and sometimes I can take it and sometimes I can only sit with it for a certain period of time before the pain becomes too much.
At least now I know what the problem is and I can use The Power and The Secret to overcome my fear of it. I have used The Secret to overcome my fear of being public, afraid of people and some other things.
I know this may sound weird, and I would never have guessed that love would be the issue that was keeping things away from me especially my family, but there it is. So now, I am using The Power to overcome this fear . I know it will work as it has before.
Thank you for writing both books and thank you for laying them out in a way it is easy to understand, and thank you for coming at a time when I had asked for an answer.
Love to you,