Lost and Found
Back in 2007, I had a drinking and drug problem. I was living mostly in my car (until it was repossessed) and I had nowhere to go and was in a terrible relationship for 5 years. One night I was sitting on a staircase in an apartment complex that I did not even live in, and I was crying with my head in my knees and I looked up to the sky and kept saying how much I missed my family and my friends (I quit speaking to them and having relations with them because my boyfriend at the time did not like them). It was years since the last time I spoke to my best friend Kristen (who I have been friends with since age 11), and it was also about a year since I spoke to and saw my own mother.
I was deeply feeling the emotions of being with those people who loved me and made everything feel okay. I didnt want to be where I was anymore, I didnt want to go through that anymore (I never told my boyfriend about the way I felt). The next day, my boyfriend and I had a huge fight (he beat me up) and I decided I was done with the way my life was going. I threw all of my own things out the window (we were staying with his uncle) and ran outside, then began putting everything in the trunk of his car and made him drive me to my mother’s house. When we got there, I went inside and told them I needed a place to stay and that I was leaving him. They were glad I was home. I made my ex bring my things inside and leave. I didnt know what I was going to do from then on, but I knew I could make my own decisions and that I wanted something better for myself. The fact that I saw the people I missed so dearly so soon shows that The Secret was working without me even knowing much about it at the time.
Later that night, I called my old friend Kristen. She was living in an apartment across town, near the beach. I love the beaches and I always felt like home there. The next day, she came and picked me up. I planned to stay a few nights at her house and that night she introduced me to The Secret.
I immediately understood the book. Ive seen the book on Oprah and Ive heard others talk about it. I always believed a lot of the things in the book, but I didnt have a way of really understanding it until I read The Secret. I never could buy my own because I was always broke, and when I had money I blew it on alcohol and drugs.
When I was at Kristen’s apartment at the beach, we would go for walks on the beach and read The Secret together and talk about the book and also talk about old times together, and I began to feel like I was at home. Two weeks later, her room mate moved out and she asked me if I could get a job out there and stay with her. I was so very happy to hear that and I got a job at a Wendys across the street. Two weeks later I was a bartender at a local beach bar, and I was making over a thousand dollars a week.
I knew it was The Secret that brought me to her, and it was The Secret that got me a job and an apartment at the beaches.
I began to feel lonely though, because I was missing my ex boyfriend, but I knew he wasnt the same anymore and I could never be with that person again and I had to move on and stay busy, however I still felt lonely and wanted to find love.
A few months later I met a man. His name is Neil. I dated him for a few months and then I found out I was pregnant (he doesnt know this, but on the couch, weeks before finding out I was pregnant, in his apartment one night, I was looking into his eyes and thought and felt what it would be like to grow old with him and what a good father he would probably be). I was very happy that it was with him. Neil is an amazing man, he has a wonderful college education, he is very smart, has a lot of common sense, and a great family. He has a lot of goals and an amazing work ethic. He is fun and loving and very supportive. We now live in our own huge apartment and he is helping me to find a career I will enjoy.
We are also looking to buy a house soon and my goals and expectations have gotten so big that I now am meditating and reading The Secret for several hours a day because I want so much and I want it so fast. I am using several exercises daily to accomplish these goals and bring my hopes and dreams to reality once more. I will update you on the next chapter of my life! =)
I now am a much more positive person. I laugh at the silly things in my life that go wrong because I think back to how I attracted it into my life and Im like “Doh! I shouldve known not to feel that way or to think that way!” And I immediately replay the events in my mind the way that I want them to go and I immediately become more positive and forget about whatever just happened and continue using The Secret to recover from whatever happened.