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Knowing Without Knowing The Secret
Submitted by: Kelly Adkins-Payant
Ottawa, Ontario, CanadaI am a customer service manager for a major retail grocery chain in Canada. I am married to a wonderful partner and best friend and we have three great kids. I volunteer my time online to the Child and Adolescent Bipolar Foundation for parents of children with Bipolar Disorder.
In March of this year (2008) I purchased The Secret from the local department store. I don’t know why I did, I just saw it and bought it without really knowing what it was. At the time I was going through a very hard time in my life. The past year had seen so many bad things I just could not see the light at the end of the tunnel.
In Feb 2007 my son was admitted to hospital with his diabetes out of control. He stayed there 3 days – that was all he would agree to – then came home much better.
In April 2007 disaster hit when my daughter accidentally flooded our house causing $100,000 damage, and that wasn’t the worst of it. We (5 of us) ended up in a small cramped hotel suite with our new puppy who we’d gotten only 2 weeks before the flood. We ended up having to stay there for three months!! The contractor kept telling us, “Just 2 more weeks,” until it was 3 months later. My daughter who is bipolar ended up in a depression, which is hard to handle in the best of circumstances.
In August 2007 we finally got to go home and immediately we took our holidays to get the family back to where it had been. At this point my daughter was getting worse and worse and midway through the month I received a letter from our insurance stating that they were not going to renew our home insurance.
Sept 3rd is the anniversary of my father’s death.
At the end of September my assistant at work was not well and I was very concerned for her. In early October it was discovered that she had a brain tumor. She was in for the fight of her life and she actually came within 1 hour of her death and fell into a coma. Her surgery was a success, but I did not know this for about a month afterwards.
In mid October my daughter went from depressed to hypomanic and eventually into full-blown mania, and had to be admitted to hospital where she stayed for 6 weeks. I took this time off work. When released (early Dec) she was worse, and we were in for a very scary 3 weeks while we watched as she seemed to be slipping away from us. December 13 she lost all touch with reality and her mania crested into something I had never seen before. She eventually started to stabilize as the new medications started to work, just in time for Christmas but not soon enough because Christmas was very hard for her and we had to leave festivities early as she could not handle all the commotion.
At the end of November I was told by my store manager that I was being transferred to another location on the other side of the city. The store I had been working at was a 5 minute drive from home and now I would have to take a bus and travel for over 1 hour each way to work. Not only that, but this new location did 3 times the volume in sales and I was already on stress-leave from work. All my support network where I had been working was gone now, and it was replaced with coldness and hostility from my assistant at the new location. She did everything in her power to try and sabotage me and my efforts to get the department up to standard, even going so far as to move things and remove things so I couldn’t find them and to talk negatively about me to the staff within the department and anyone who would listen. I was depressed and hopeless.
Then in March 2008 I took my holidays during my kid’s March break and bought The Secret. I started reading it in between activities with the kids. I couldn’t stop reading it and I had one of those “Aha!!” moments. This book that I bought blindly was exactly the book that I needed to pull myself out of this funk and make positive changes in my life.
The more I read the happier I got, and the more positive outlook I had. When I went back to work, things were different, I was different. Where I was negative before I was now always smiling and had a positive attitude. Then the funniest thing happened… my assistant applied to step down and go to nights stating that it was a good choice for her kids right now because she and her husband were in the middle of a divorce. When she did this I started to visualize that my assistant from my old store would come and work with me at my new store. BTW, the chances of this were slim to none because she was part-time and full-time are always considered first. As I visualized this I started to believe it. I somehow “knew” that she was coming. I started telling people about her and how she would be a good addition for the department.
One day my manager came to me and told me that no full time employees had applied for the job. I was not surprised, because I had been using The Secret. But this was the living proof for me that it works. So my manager then told me that there was one employee from our store who had applied and two from my old store. Immediately I knew which two they were, because I had called them and told them both to apply. It was my assistant and one of my right-hand girls.
So 1 week later and just in time for my holidays, my assistant from my old store was standing next to me in OUR new store together prepared to take on the world.
The weird thing is that after that happened I started to realize that all the great things that I had in my life I had literally willed into my life… my house, the great doctors my daughter has had, the most amazing schools and teacher and staff therein. All of these things I had willed into existence, even when my husband told me it could not be done.
We purchased a house in July – my dream house in the perfect neighborhood. This house we would not have ever been able to afford, but it needed a little work so the price was right and a great investment. We took a really big gamble because we put a conditional offer on the table that did not include the condition of the sale of our house. We had to because there was a line up of people behind us just chomping at the bit for this deal to fall through. So we took the plunge with a closing date of October 1st. It is now September 10th and we have not yet sold our house, but it feel like we have, and today I am starting my packing. I know like I know like I know that everything is working out. I have complete and utter faith.
Thank you for all that I have and thank you Rhonda for this beautiful book. Today when listening to The Secret audio book I wrote down The Master Keys by Charles Haanel because I wanted to look it up online. I came to this website after Googling it and getting nowhere really. Then I went into the site map looking for that place you say that a man wrote that he wanted a copy of The Secret because I wanted to do that for The Master Keys, and low and behold it is on your list and you can download the PDF!!!! More proof for me that I need to always keep faith.