When I was a child my life was so magical. I remember the excitement I felt about about every experience I had, the deep joy of cuddling our dog’s new puppies, the adventure of finding out where our cat had hidden her kittens, the smile on my dad’s face when he watches my brother and I riding our bikes, the warmth of mum tucking me in at night. I cherish those memories now but it hasn’t always been that way.
My mother developed depression which further developed into schizophrenia. My parents separated because of my mother’s severe mood swings and my father’s drug habits became worse. As a young girl up until being a teenager I felt lonely moving from one place to another living mostly with my grandmother. My brother was with my mum. I cried and cried every night asking god why this had happened to my beautiful family.
My childhood had gone, I couldn’t find my joy any more, I started praying for a baby “please god give me a baby to love and protect and hold so I wont feel lonely any more please!” I would ask every night. When I was 13 I had my first boyfriend and fell pregnant at 14. My mother couldn’t control me and my father had gone to jail. My boyfriend’s parents were so mean to me. They said they would kill my family and used black mail to stop me from trying to leave, but I didn’t love my self enough and thought my boyfriend was a true love.
We moved to Oz even though I didn’t want to leave my family. His parents planed to kidnap my son many times they even took me to court but failed because the judge could see my undying love for my son. I got the courage to run away from them with my boyfriend and found our way back home to NZ, my grandmother and others we meet where so helpful. (Thank you).
My boyfriend left me for a friend which was more drama, but I was insecure about myself and we were so young, he chose not to see his child anymore.
After that I did a lot of sole searching and had more bad experiences with relationships until one day I woke up and told my self. “This in bull s..t, my life is going to change today, I don’t care how it just has to”.
No word of a lie I walked into a shop and saw this book The secret, had a little read and was like, Wow, maybe my life Will change. So I read the whole book and said to my self, if this really works I am going to go to my mums and read the paper and I wrote a note saying 2 bdrm house perfect for solo parent $200 a week in a certain area.
To my total amazement there it was, exactly what I had written in the paper. I rang up but was in too much shock, I couldn’t go through with it. Ever since The Secret has been my bible and The Magic my guide.
So I started to love myself again and made a list of what my sole mate would look like. I even drew a picture of him ( I am kind of a good drawer). I cleared space for him in my home and car and I would picture him and a little girl playing with my son and I.
Sure enough I now have my man who has a little sister who is 4 yrs old and they look just like the picture I drew. We both had some trust issues at first but things have smoothed out and trust is there and he is the sweetest person I have ever had this close to me. I told him all about the LOA and my books and he already had The Secret movie, but had not really watched it. Now we both use gratitude and LOA in our lives, and I feel and look younger and happier than ever! My stretch marks and scars are fading, more money is coming into my life, my son goes to a lovely school, I have a cool little flat, awesome in-laws, a new car, a lovely man, a beautiful family, and a new sense of adventure. And every now and then I learn new ways to improve how I use the LOA.
A beautiful woman told me a few weeks ago that if you have thoughts you don’t want all you have to say is “Cancel, clear, delete” and what ever was there will be gone so you can carry on with your day without worry. Thank you thank you thank you universe, and all who dwell within it for making this a beautiful place to live. I hope you enjoyed my story and have a magical life x.