Just Have Faith.
I grew up with my mother who had been suffered from depression. She had been abused by her step-mother since she was small. Then she went into a toxic marriage and then she had postnatal depression after she lost my brother. These experiences she had eventually affected us, her children. She’d always have negative self-talk, and we would hear it when we were in the car for an outing or anytime we would try to hang out. She also had been on anti-depressant medication for more than 2 decades. I didn’t realize this was bad until I found myself started to be like her, the negative self-talk, and overthinking everything.
I began asking myself why I felt really tired when I was at my parent’s house when I had not even done anything. It is so true that negative vibes are able to consume your energy!
After years and years of listening to her ramblings about how unhappy she was with my dad and the marriage, it eventually had molded my thinking into that direction. I began to have the thought that men are not good, subconsciously. I always felt jealous when I was looking at my friend’s happy parents. I didn’t know that it was a bad feeling until I was introduced to The Secret by my best friend.
After reading The Secret, I realized that I had a very bad approach to living. My whole life I did not have a healthy way of thinking. No wonder I kept having issues in my relationships. I read so many relationship books but none was working. Then I lost my second man who I loved dearly. So, I decided to practice The Secret.
I was in a position where I felt sure that he would not come back to me but, I put my faith in trying to attract him back into my life. I keep imagining his voice telling me “Let’s get married”. People who don’t understand LOA will definitely think this is crazy. It was very hard for me to let it go after stated my desires. It took almost 6 months to finally let it go. I now understand how our bad and desperate feelings can block our manifestations. I finally let go because I was too drained to hope. Trust me, emotional pain is equal to physical pain. It will consume your energy, guys.
I remember the day I finally moved on. I deleted everything about him. Not long after that, I got a chance to attend a training by my company. The training that I had been looking forward to joining, but it was too expensive for me. And guess what?! I was 100% funded for the course!
Three months had passed and I was engrossed with the course. I had no time to think about my ex. Then one night when I was doing work, I got a message from him. He wanted to see me and discuss us. Guess what?! Two days later we met and he proposed!
But again, I fell into the same loop. We fought and broke up again. The lesson that I wanted to share about my story is to bear in mind that LOA is a lifestyle, it’s an ongoing process. You don’t just practice positive thinking when trying to manifest something. In fact, you have to be positive along the journey. It’s a kind of lifetime journey. As for now, I will practice LOA generally. I won’t be doing it for the sake of getting a marriage or getting back an ex. I will be doing it for my life! If you still have doubts about LOA, just open this site and read all the success stories. Trust me, when you finally grasp the technique, you will be your happiest as you know you are in control.