Just found realization
So 2007 was not a good year for me. My mother and father’s divorce was finalized, my father got remarried to a woman who makes him happy but is trying to come between us, and the man that I had shared my life and my apartment with had broken my heart. I was distraught, so I did the worst thing you can do. I started to drink a lot, and I started to fool around with guys who didn’t care about me – they just wanted one thing and one thing only from me. The sad thing was I gave it to them, just because I didn’t want to spend a night alone. I lost 50 pounds really fast because I wasn’t eating and I wasn’t taking care of myself.
I came into work one day and my manager came up to me, and by the look on my face she could tell something was wrong. She took me into her office and I lost it. I broke down I was so depressed. She told me about the book The Secret. I was so desperate to try anything that would help me, so I went and picked up the book. But I never read it, so I went and got the movie. I watched almost every night, and I started to write in a journal. But I didn’t think that it was helping, so I just stopped watching it.
I recently started dating this man who I met online. He went to Afghanistan for the Army, and when he came back we met and we have been together ever since. I was crazy about this guy even before he came back, and now I think that I am falling in love with him. One day I went to visit him, and when I left this feeling of insecurity came over me because he told me that in October he was leaving for some training and was not going to be back for 7 months. I started to think that he was going to hurt me like all the others. He told me that he wanted to stay with me, and he asked me if I could handle it. I care about him so much that I said that I could, however I could not help this feeling.
I had been feeling this way for a few days now, so I decided to read some of the success stories on The Secret website. I started to read stories about how they wrote in their journals about what they wanted out of a relationship. And that is when I realised that I wrote the same thing in my journal.
So I looked back in my journal, and I just realized that everything that I wanted in a lover is in my boyfriend. I can’t believe that it worked. I didn’t even know that I was doing that. I knew when he found me online line that he was different, but now I know…. he is the one. The one that I have been waiting for.
I am definitely going to use the Secret a lot more now.