Just believe it is yours!
I think I had been depressed for most of my life. As far back as I can remember, I had always had thoughts that nobody wanted me. I dont know why, because I came from a very loving family, and to this day have a wonderful relationship with my entire family. I guess it doesnt matter why. But my depression turned into some self-destructive behavior in my teens, which made me even more depressed. This progressed into my adult life.
After 4 years of trying to get pregnant with my 2nd husband – who is the man of my dreams – we started infertility treatments. So much stress and no success made me even more depressed – so we took a break from the treatments. One day I had laid down on the couch to watch TV and take a nap because I was just feeling so down. When I woke up, the 700 Club was on. I dont recall what was said but something motivated me to stop feeling sorry for myself.
That day I watched The Secret. I started to walk on the treadmill every day and I would go through a litany of thanks. I would start at the top of my head and work my way down through every body part – inside and out. I would be thankful for my eyes and how healthy they are, and for all the wonderful things I can see… etc. I would be especially thankful for the baby I was carrying. I would rub my belly and yell out how thankful I was that we were pregnant and that the baby was so very healthy. I would commend my body on how amazing it was to create such a wonderful little being. I was not pregnant at the time – but I kept it up every day for over a month.
At the end of the second month I received the best news I could imagine. I WAS PREGNANT!!! Naturally, without any treatments. I had stopped focusing on the fact that we were not pregnant every month, and truly believed I was. It has been the biggest blessing that we could ever get. We could not have done it without the Secret. I believe that with all my heart.
During my pregnancy I received the vehicle I wanted, and one day, in the newspaper, I found a free gift card for $10 worth of coffee. It doesnt matter how big or small – focus, and believe it is yours. Because it is.