It’s Yours If You Let It.
Two summers ago, I felt that I had met the love of my life. He was everything that I had hoped for and more. His love healed so much trauma in my heart. The only piece of the puzzle that didn’t fit was how manipulative, controlling, and toxic his parents were. It hurt my heart more than he knew, to watch them treat him that way.
Fast forward through what I thought was going to be forever. He shattered my heart in the cruelest ways that I never saw coming, and darkness and sadness came into my life. I thought that it was there to stay, that I would make a home within it. Without him, I felt no pulse.
That was when two, very kind souls helped me to stay afloat. They sprinkled me with compassion and kindness. They held a space for me while my heart broke multiple times over trying to accept that he was not going to be in my life anymore. I am so beyond grateful that they did not give up on me. Earth angels really do exist!!
I first saw ‘him’ last winter at the gym where I worked out. Instantly in my mind, I said, “Wow, who is that?” Like I somehow knew him before, but I shook it off because I was still deep in my healing. Over the year I would run into him there randomly. Or when I would think of him, he would come through the gym doors. I would try to work up the courage to talk to him but I would get too nervous and walk away.
Then finally one day, I thought, well, I probably won’t see him again, what do I have to lose? I had not seen him for a while and since this whole COVID thing, things were obviously not the same in the gym anymore. Then two days later, I saw him running outside with a guy. Then later that same day I saw them again. His friend said good morning and he smiled at me. Then, what were the chances? I saw them again! For the third time in one day!! This time it was just his friend, who turned out to be his running coach. He invited me to run with them one evening.
Now, me and that guy are happily together and have not been apart ever since!! I have the keys to his place. We have so much in common. He is everything that I had ever hoped for and more. We dream big together, we grow together, we rise up together, and we are always laughing together. As soon as I had let go of the fear and thought, “I probably won’t see him again, what do I have to lose?”, I made room for him to come.
I am so, so grateful for him. I am also so grateful for the stories and the books. I am grateful for myself. I am grateful for love. The ‘surrender experiment’ is also an amazing read. I re-read it often. I am so excited to see all of my other dreams become my reality. I am grateful for a healing heart. This man is pure magic and he adores me. I can not wait to see what our future holds, what my future holds!!
Don’t give up. I promised that I would get to write here one day. Now I have and I am excited to share more! Thank you for The Magic. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!
You are worthy, deserving of all things great, you matter
All the love and gratitude.