It’s Real And Knows What’s Best For You.
I first learned about The Secret when I was 13. I tried using it every now and then only to mostly be left disappointed and frustrated. However, I kept at it. Over the years I finally started getting the hang of it. I’m 18 now and over the last year my entire life has changed.
Okay, so flashback to Fall/Winter 2014. I was quickly spiraling deep into depression. I was angry, lonely, unmotivated, anxious and felt that I was worth nothing. I abused alcohol and stated smoking. I knew my life was a mess but I didn’t know what to do about it. I hated everything about my life and where I lived. I was supposed to be graduating but I was very far behind. The thought of repeating grade 12 was humiliating to me.
Every day I’d wait for the bus at the bottom of my hill. My family lives in Central Ontario and the landscape is very dense forest and dirt roads. Anyways, every day I’d wait for the bus and a lot of the time a truck would go by. A Work truck full of a bunch of guys that waved at me while they passed by. The place they worked was a very old business and had camping, a dock and storage.
One day the thought of them stopping to pick me up popped into my head. No, I thought, that’s crazy. I had social anxiety and it kicked in whenever I was around new people. I’d probably have an anxiety attack or something. The thought continued to intrude every now and then and each time I’d have a new excuse as to why it would never happen. I have school or I’m too shy to even talk to them.
Months go by and things start to change. I stop drinking so much and quit smoking. I’m still a little miserable and behind in school but Spring comes around and I’ve some great friends and I some new found ambition. Not to mention my confidence has skyrocketed and I’m starting to enjoy school. I go to prom and the prom party and have a great time. I end up getting involved with a boy who ends up hurting me a month or two after we start talking and I get a little down because of it.
Summer rolls around and I apply for the student job at the same place the guys that passed by worked. I get it and that’s where I started having some crazy character development. I start to get close with the guys at work despite most of them being almost 20 years older than me, and I start having fun and can’t wait to go back to work. I figure out a way to get some school done through doing a co-op and by the time I’m done my summer placement they say I can still do the co-op and graduate without going back to school!! Seriously, everything I was thinking last fall, how impossible it all sounded, how I felt so hopeless, is now the exact opposite! I’m graduating this semester and I’m hopefully going to school in the city!!
Compared to this time last year, everything is completely different. I used to be so stuck on getting back to the way everything “used to be”, but honestly it’s so much easier to be who you are. I realized the Universe is literally only looking for what’s best for you. Offering things that will help you on your own journey. Things may not be the way they used to be but there’s always something better coming. It’s not about just demanding that the universe gives you want you want, it’s allowing it to guide you to want you want and even more importantly, what you need. You have to trust it and more importantly, know that it’s responding to what you give to it.
Thank you so much for reading. I wish you the best of luck on your journey!!
Thank you, Universe.